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okay but with eddie wanting to move to texas it also means that chris won't be back in LA and buck won't see him again. that would be the last straw for buck. that man is going to spiral like never before

he needs someone to remind him that he is a good father (nobody has said that to him yet) before he can go and get chris back

also he is seeing chris getting the childhood that he (eddie) probably always wanted (ramon is genuinely interested in chris). eddie needs to realise that he does deserve joy and isn't a danger to his son.

i think that he is fighting himself to not go and get chris because he thinks that chris is better/safer/happier in tx
i think that he just doesn't feel worthy right now and that probably thinks that he deserves to 'lose' chris over what happens.

speaking my truth:
i don't think that it's ooc for eddie to not 'fight' for chris.
he said it himself:he doesn't feel like he deserves forgiveness. he is/was denying himself joy. he said that he couldn't look at himself because all he could see was a failure.