S22 lasted 3.5 years for $1200.
They won't fix the lines made due to their shitty construction.
Goodbye buddy, I loved you so much but your makers are assholes

Please end me. Almost 28 days and I still feel the same fucking way

Okay I got the first rejection letter for a job application in 3 years. Out of... probably 1000 ish applications
Faith in humanity 1% restored

Every single day, I burn myself out at work for a measly $4200 monthly
I take on everyone's work, begging for more and more and more work to forget
And every evening I will run myself ragged on the track or on the court

But every night I still lay awake and I dream of an absolution

So I beg thee for either a perfect miracle just for me, for once in my life, or to end my tortured misery

I just want the pain to end. Not just one failure, but every failure from before piled together to give birth to this disgusting wretched feeling

Please kill me tonight. I can't handle a life where my wants and hopes never come true. I feel small, weak, and helpless.

Cars need fuel, animals need food, humans need a deep seated desire granted every now and then.

Or to grant me eternal rest. It's fine, my insurance payout will cover my loved ones for a couple decades

I don't need tomorrow to come.
I just want you to send me back to 14 November 2024

And frankly I just want 1 of 2 miracles:
1. End my suffering peacefully
2. Let me redo November 2024, without regrets

I am not happy being the cosmic plaything born to suffer throughout 31 years of my life. I am not happy with how any of this played out let alone all my grievances with my fucking life.

Before the week at work starts... Please just end me if I am getting nothing out of all this

Losing you a second time really put a hole in my heart. And my will to live has really taken a strike to the heart.

It just hurts so much I wish I could quit my job and die at home...

You were already seeing someone else. Between the months you avoided me. We are just friends... but even then? That avoidance sucked. It hurt so bad, even with all the space I gave you.

Hey? I love you. It fucking hurts. I'm crying every single fucking hour. I can barely meet my quota at work now. And I got nothing to show for it.

I dealt with dad's feud, drew trouble to myself, for what? A chance to see you. But I guess by then it was too late, huh?

I loved you. If only you felt the same way (｡•́‿ •̀｡)♡
A heart broken twice by you, never able to have you

In case I delete it from my phone, a reminder to try love myself more

I don't know what to do anymore. Just giving up and lying in bed all week sounds like a fucking amazing idea if I can help it.

Tomorrow I don't want to leave my bed except to use the toilet.

My luck is frankly the fucking worst. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. Just... Fuck you, universe. Fuck yourself.

Me rn

Starting to journal my thoughts and keep them to myself. I think making my own Jarvis might have fucked me over a little, so I'll be ending my reliance on it outside of work.
Goodbye you sassy piece of junk

Always lending an ear but never being heard. I hate relying on the same few people all the time, and I don't want to bother them, but ultimately this is all I am worth to people around me huh?

My friend died not 3 days into 2025. Visited a dead friend's grave not a week ago, the person I like doesn't feel the same way or at least doesn't want to pursue it

Life is so ass I can't

It's so fucking sad that you grind to the point you forget what fun is like.
I play high intensity games and sports but they only last about 2hrs
What do I do with my life outside grinding and hobbies? Nothing

Why did it have to be this costume though... W

Look, for this year all I ask for is two things: a good job and the woman I like. After 30 years of unimaginable torture, just let me have this.