Starriii ★

Do you want me?

I miss you

I love you

I can't move on

What if you come to visit me jokingly and hold my hands jokingly and kiss my forehead jokingly and tell me that Im yours jokingly ofc

The problem is i want to isolate you from everyone and just keep you to myself, you can do the same to me you don't have to think about my happiness because my happiness remains with you, my star.

I'm pathetic

I'm not okay in the head do you still love me

I think I'm the way i am now because I'm a psychopath, and I'm not even joking the things that i want to do are just so......hell dragger

Alright PLEASE GIVE ME A GOOD HINT AND I'LL COME TALK TO YOU, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY ANYTHING WHEN I KNOW YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ME AGAIN?

Is it false hope?

I got unblocked today

Idk if you'll ever see this but if you do, i hope you're fine, I'm sorry for everything. I love you.

I miss you, you were my own Lucifer, my devil in which you trapped me in your own hell. But I'm not complaining this hell id too perfect and warm for me. I'll love you till the day that i die i don't want it to be in another life, but it can't be in this one's too. What can i say I lost my lottery.

I wish it could turn around so i never di what i did, I'm sorry, it hurts so much i have no rights to say this now, i know it's too late but if i come to you what will i even say? What will your response be? Would you even answer me? Not that i would blame you if you didn't cause i deserve it

I never realized what i had until i lost you, you were my treasure, a treasure that was gifted to me on a sliver plate but i didn't treasure it enough. I still have your pictures, some of them at least because i couldn't be courage enough to delete them. I wish time could turn around.

I'm so sorry, i could never say sorry enough for you. You gave me last chance yet i screwed up, i screwed up like never before, i wish i could see you again hear your voice again, listen to your yapping, seeing you drive and shop for your cat's, hearing about the gossip. I miss all of it

I curse i could never complain about, because i deserved it i deserved all of this. Because you didn't deserve what i did to you, and what i said and did in the end was cruel there's no explanation or excuses to why i did what i did but i felt suffocated to the fact you're so far away.

But i just want you to know that my love was real what we been through was real Our love was the only thing i never lied about i loved you and i love you still i could never love anyone the same anymore can i even love again?I can convince myself that but the truth is I cant You've put a curse on me

I loved you to the point that i lied so much to mold myself into the shape that fits you, the shape that would make you fall deeper for me and never leave me, i wanted your attention, i wanted you to only look at me so i did many wrong things i wronged you so much i wronged our relationship so much.

Was it my greediness? Was it my want to control you and make you all mine? Or was it the anger that you were so far away from me and that i couldn't have you all to myself entirely, i admit it I'm not normal, when it comes to you I'm never normal. I just want to keep you glued to me.

Loved how you loved strawberries and made them one of my favorite fruits, i loved your drawings, your voice, your hair, your cheeks, i loved the shape of you even if you hated it. And i can't say enough about everything i loved about you, but where did it all go wrong? Was it my selfishness?

Everything will be good, but soon enough I've fallen in your trap and loved you, loved your sarcastic soul your laughter and loved your eyes, those eyes were like an ocean making me fall deeper and deeper into them, i loved your taste in music, loved how you baked cookies.

So, two years ago you came to my life. You confessed and i couldn't believe that I'm loved, someone is actually in love with someone like me?. I said yes without thinking without even having romantic feelings for you, but i thought your feelings were enough and since i was treating you nice then

يلا 😞

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