The yapping knight

Thank you I needed to hear that

I’m moving into adulthood now yay I genuinely have so much pressure on my driving test because I have all my future plans built on me passing
I really want to do more with my time but I am spending so much of it on setting myself higher expectations for the future I am trying my best to cope with it

These are all generalisations of us but I feel like it’s enough to at least rationalise how I act I am not writing this so people know who’s talking at anytime (because we post exactly the same) but I’m writing this simply to have this out there

Seph - this is the most happy and carefree headmate they aren’t great with projects or work but they are truly happy with their self they have a sense of hope that no one else has and while right now I am alexis most of the time I would be happier if they took over more(idk if that’s the right term)

Jack - jack is the least social out of all of us they are very focused on what they’re doing and they are very reclusive they do definitely have the best work ethic though

Avery - avery is very social and impulsive out of us they love being around people and often do stupid things that other headmates hate to remember later

Breeze - breeze is a lot like seph in being soft spoken and introverted though is a lot more pessimistic they are very self conscious about most things they do and have a lot more social anxiety than the others (though we all have it)

Alexis - the one typing this right now I am very calm and soft spoken, I usually like to take time to myself for no specific reason but to be alone for a bit I am moderately social though too much does tire me out

To follow up on me realising I am a system I am going to reply to this post explaining all of the alters that I have recognised so far (there may be more but probably not) I will try and give each of them names but they probably won’t stick so whenever you are referring to me refer to me as seph

No but Chester is kind of a cute name now I’m thinking about it (still not though)

Even on vent I will die on this hill

No papyrus is a bit of a mouthful of a name

I may go with multiple names anyway because I couldn’t decide to make my chosen name seph breeze or alexis when I realised I was nb and I still really like those other names lmao

I will not be specifying which headmate is talking at any time as we (still feels weird saying that) don’t feel like we are ready to identify how each of us talks and we don’t think that we post different enough for it to matter

I was very held up at first about being a system as I still have all of my memories though looking back some of my memories seem very un-me in a way that I can’t explain with time and me being a traumatic system really puts those into frame

I have decided after a lot of thinking that I will start referring to myself as a system I’m not going to put this on my main as I’m still not completely sure about it but after looking at myself through the perspective of me being a system everything unexplained about me finally makes sense

Yipee I love driving theory test revision hell yeah I missed revising that was my favourite thing to do
I would say it makes me want to merge without looking but that doesn’t seem right given the context

There has been a fucking swarm of wasps where I am for all of summer it’s so fucking annoying I basically can’t go outside anymore

Also when I said that this wasn’t really a vent acc this is what I meant

I didn’t mean to post this on vent but this works I guess

I LOVE HAVEING A MASTERCARD IT MAKES ME WANT TO MERGE WITHOUT LOOKING

I may add we to my pronouns just in case

Though then again I could also explain how I felt as mood swings from, well, any number of the other things I have going on up there I really need to get around to being diagnosed for all my shit so I know what’s a part of the stuff I already know and what isn’t

Okay looking back on how I observed myself today me having DID is a bit more of a possibility I’m still on the fence as I do still keep all of my memories but I also feel really disconnected from those memories I don’t really know how to describe it really

Yeah that’s what I was thinking but something about it seemed very off I was very distant when I wasn’t with people I knew and when I left them it seemed like all my mannerisms changed I’m still very early in questioning this though and that could just be something different

I haven’t really recalled or noticed any other time since then I have acted differently since then except for when I’m allowed to be androgynous where I do act different but that could just be the gender euphoria
I’m really not sure, this is something I need time to figure out if I have it or not

Character limit

Hey sorry I don’t really want you here I’m okay with you following my main since you are very normal about it but it feels weird you looking at my vents

Sablye