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@yearningchaos.bsky.social

I’m sad. I’m angry. I’m deranged. And yes, I am making it everyone’s problem.

51 Followers  |  24 Following  |  24 Posts  |  Joined: 22.11.2024
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No one cares. No one cares. No one cares. No one cares. Everyone thinks I’m dramatic.

30.03.2025 02:34 β€” πŸ‘ 2    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I just want to be enough. Please sunflower, please let me be enough please.

30.03.2025 01:42 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

Please just fight for me. Fight for me please. Please just prove to me I’m important. Please. Please.

30.03.2025 01:41 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I serious am losing my will and I’m afraid I’m getting closer to eternal sleep

19.03.2025 20:00 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

β€œI’ve lost all my sense of worth, you’re always on my mind and it keeps getting worse.” -TRSH

19.03.2025 19:59 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I know what I need to do, I know what’s good for me and I know that I deserve better. But I hate myself for not being able to stop

14.03.2025 06:45 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

Like I know I’m being treated like SHIT. And yet I’m letting it happen just because I want to feel wanted. Just for a second !!

14.03.2025 06:43 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I wish that I could physically stop myself from letting shitting things happen to me just bc I want at least a second of feeling wanted, even if it’s for just a second.

14.03.2025 06:43 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I wish I was physically able to stop giving someone my EVERYTHING when they don’t even give me the bare minimum

14.03.2025 06:41 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I knew she was using me. I wonder who caught her attention now.

09.03.2025 20:43 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I started planning it out again. I haven’t done that in years. But I’m getting so tired, even more than I was back then.

05.03.2025 22:12 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I deserve this I deserve this I deserve this I deserve this I deserve this I deserve this I deserve this I deserve this I deserve this I deserve this

05.03.2025 22:07 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I don’t think I’ll ever stop being a mess. And that’s what scares me the most.

27.02.2025 05:13 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

Why is my brain being so fucking mean to me today. What do you MEAN she’s only pretending to be into me????

21.02.2025 02:20 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

You are the lightness within the rain. You make everything so much brighter even if it is a gloomy day. You’re like the sun rays peeking out through the clouds as rain falls softly. My sweet Sunflower. ~ Chaos

#relationships #fallinginlove
#bpd #poem

17.02.2025 04:16 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

It terrifies how myself I can be with you, when sometimes I can’t even be myself with my own self

#relationships #bpd #mentalillness

17.02.2025 04:12 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
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*Dreamy sigh*

#sapphic

04.02.2025 22:09 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
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THE YELLOW SQUARE IM HOLLERING

07.01.2025 01:38 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

You rather go blind than see you were the problem. And I rather go deaf than hear I was the problem.

12.12.2024 19:31 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I’m starting to think the voices are right, this is my fault.

02.12.2024 17:06 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
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Morning came too soon

23.11.2024 15:27 β€” πŸ‘ 34    πŸ” 2    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

Metal: Everything sucks, but I have my rage.
Punk: Everything sucks, but I'll focus my anger.
Rap: Everything sucks, but I know how to survive.
Folk: Everything sucks, but there is beauty.
Ska: Everything sucks, let's ignore it.
Emo: Everything sucks, and I miss you.

22.11.2024 14:04 β€” πŸ‘ 23002    πŸ” 2599    πŸ’¬ 623    πŸ“Œ 296
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Treasure, treasure, give me treasure

22.11.2024 17:09 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I think an entire rotisserie chicken would fix me right now.

22.11.2024 14:35 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I’m getting all choked up, I guess it’s just my luck…

22.11.2024 13:20 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I wanna rock and roll 2 hours tops and party maybe every 14 days

22.11.2024 05:02 β€” πŸ‘ 14903    πŸ” 1472    πŸ’¬ 331    πŸ“Œ 83
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Street art perfection!

22.11.2024 12:09 β€” πŸ‘ 39846    πŸ” 3519    πŸ’¬ 897    πŸ“Œ 182

Aaaaahhhh shit, here we go again.

22.11.2024 06:49 β€” πŸ‘ 2    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0