the thunderous one

me when I avoid neighborhoods not for safety concerns but just bc I don't want to run into people I know or be mildly inconvenienced by anything ever

like the advantage to living there for 27 years is that I know the lay of the land but the disadvantage is that it makes me really picky and ya girl is not made of money even if my tax return is funding this trip

still in the trenches of trying to figure out hotels for this trip and I'm like "why is a 5 day stay literally 1700+ everywhere that isn't going to be either hazardous to my health OR in neighborhoods that are not served well by the mta/neighborhoods I just don't want to be in

now vibrating (derogatory) because hotel rates are so so so sooooooo ass. just trying to get an idea here and i'm like why is a 5 day stay like this

(i expected it but also i hate it, thanks!!!!!)

vibrating bc my tax return hit the bank account and that means i can finally book my trip to ny

time to start trawling for flight and hotels!!!!

me like "who is gonna watch this with me" even though i, yknow

- was at this show
- have 60 gigs of my own footage
- saw this in the theaters twice
- have literally 5 other concert blurays from their other tours

i will not stop being insane anytime soon i'm sorry. they're just too good

👁️👄👁️

he replied to this with "yeah we're bros" and i'm just so glad he partakes in my nonsense at all times

i caught them being up to some shit and feel very judged in return

meanwhile, bothering hub in the middle of the with this kind of shit

idk what is worse, that he has been thirst trapping so much lately or the fact that he forces me to reconcile with the fact that I am not immune 😭 being attacked at all times

shout outs to hub who took the phone from me and recorded a bunch of shit. immortalized holding my cute and thematic phone case

two types of people during this song (where did all of my hair go)

crying bc someone uploaded escape from theater footage and i found my big screen debut in the most comically unflattering angle and lighting EVER

doubly so because it was also while i was having a fucking crisis over christopher existing and being a whole entire man

so much I can't say on main but let it be known I am pissed rn lol

we're having a party for one of our managers who is leaving and they put a sign up that just says "rude that you're leaving but ok" and that really sells the energy of where I work lmaooo

my job releasing a public statement about how they stand in solidarity with what's going on and are fully committed to defending and upholding civil and constitutional rights 😌

they pr-spoke a bit out of necessity but I know they aren't going to aid those evil fucks and that's enough for me

couldnt even do me a solid and wait until tomorrow night so I could NOT have to deal with this at the office 😩

like what do you mean I have another 10+ years of this nonsense who fucking asked for this!!!!

gonna tmi but I gotta say, the perimenopause effect of "sometimes my periods decide three weeks is go time" is actually so annoying.

I can deal with most of the other stupid hormonal shit my body does but my cycle going from a 28-40 to a 21-28 is just foul. I just did this!!!!!!!?!

at least that place is familiar in the culture to me. it's just too damn expensive for what you get. but man. I gotta get out of here, I think. I cannot see myself staying here forever even if I probably can't leave for 10 more years

I don't really like it out here. like my job is good and stable and I should stay here for that alone bc of the pension but... the culture here is not something I like. it's not even like I have a lot of friends or family back there anymore, but I have none here either so it's like. ugh

once again being frustrated and lamenting the fact that even though my income is very good rn, I cannot afford to move back to ny

the longer I'm here, the more I want to relocate back there and I just CAN'T which has me so incredibly aggravated

cannot stand that guy bc for years he has just spouted so much misinformed shit. and the intentions are good but the righteous fucking attitude while not looking at the full picture or all the facts, or personal experience drives me absolutely fucking batty. this shit isn't activism

I thought I had blocked that One Voice Actor who always posts propaganda and shitty political takes but I guess I hadn't since moving here and now I'm like bruh shut the fuck up, once again

GOD REAL THO... even though I have a other trip to book after I do my taxes but this one is just... a lil treat. a lil 3 day treat for my sanity lmaoooo

sometimes you just have to plan a little getaway trip less than a month before your 20th anniversary despite the horrors

truly in a state of "my mental health is held together by good food, my friends, those 8 goobers from across the world, and video games"

THEY ARE REALLY NOT HAVING IT

CRYING not the members out here agreeing that their company is greedy as shit with predatory pricing for their membership this year

this is so funny, they are NOT about this if they're actually acknowledging it this way

i'm not mad because this was always going to be the outcome but also???? ???? why did we go through this at all lmao