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I hate men. Accidently told the gas station employee I was a therapist he talking about some "are you a good listener?" first of all I dont even listen to men. He put his number in my phone. Im making a reminder to not go to the store around this time anymore. That number will be trashed too lmao

Next week is my doctor's appointment with my new pcp. Just gotta survive until then

Sometimes my job is interesting bc why was I just coloring for the past 2 and a half hours

My last super continuously threatened my license and questioned my competence and it unfortunately did a number on me but I'm working through it with my therapist! Im glad I told my current supervisor about that experience bc I do think she treads lightly but is still constructive.

And then she proceeded to validate me while also telling me im too hard on myself and yes I am lol I have imposter syndrome and suffer from self doubt even tho I'm quite capable and competent and my work ethic reflects it. We did discuss vurry minor things I can improve too.

Asked my supervisor if I was doing anything that worried her or anything I could improve in and she said "why are you asking me that?" And I dead was like past workplace trauma 😭

Oh.....they're NAWT playing cuz the ending of this first episode 😬

9 minutes in and this shit scary 💀

Watching the new IT: Welcome to Derry series bc ppl are doing lore vids again on TT.

Why did I even have all the ingredients.

Becoming my grandmother bc why did I willingly make tuna pasta salad.

They don’t care. If they cared about food security for children, school lunch would be free and folks wouldn’t push back on it every time the topic is brought up.

SNAP also feeds the elderly, the disabled, the unemployed, and MOSTLY the EMPLOYED. Most recipients work. They’re underemployed

Like ppl are actually going to d*e this is scary.

First food stamps, medical insurance tripling like are we trying to kill off the population what the fuck.

mentally im vurry close to checking out

hey man if they fuck up food stamps it's gonna get real nasty out there basically instantly and i think people are radically underestimating how quickly things can and may go nonlinear

Like we are way past dissassociating. Ppl (me) are struggling to just survive.

The country is literally going to shit and we're supposed to just function like everything is okay. I feel like im about to lose my mind tbh

Im literally going to wait 30 minutes. Id like for it to be moved now bc i dont want my cycle to finish and they're now drying their clothes and mine have to sit while they dry

We have 1 dryer and washer in our entire building im trying to figure the logic behind leaving your clothes in either appliances when you know there's other people who may need to use it

Tomorrow. D.C. The National Mall. Sunup to sundown.

Im almost finished with Silksong :( currently fighting Karmelita and then soon after that will be the final boss of the entire game 😭 I've been playing this game for like a month and a half

Comic illustration: a happy little bat colored in ace pride flag colors: black, grey, white and purple. The text says: You are acesome!

I almost missed Ace week! Hope you are all doing well, my fellow aces 🖤🩶🤍💜.

I prefer not to do sessions on Saturday so hopefully she can either see me at a later time today or I guess ill see her next week 😬

She could* also just be out today so lemme control my anxious thoughts

I knew something was off normally I get a reminder early in the week about upcoming sessions. Imma be real not a bad week but things have nawt been in my favor and ion like det 😭

Woke up early for therapy and I see my appointment is not even scheduled 😭 we meet every week so idk maybe shes out but i was responsible and messaged asking if we were meeting bc if not im going back to sleep 💀

And like she asked me twice after I was like im coming off a cold like girl I have too much anxiety to be beating around the bush. We didnt even get through my supervision and have to finish early next week 😭

My supervisor asked me if everything was okay today and I was like yeah but now im paranoid bc have I done something to make her think things are nawt okay

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