alien thang

I can't put this on main or in my discord so I doubt anyone will see this but I can't work on my computer while my housemate is here and due to the ice storm no one is leaving the house 😭 I genuinely feel awful about going this long without anything but I'm trying as hard as I can

cardboard. in my lungs

cardboard tail....

cosplay......... cosplay.........

I fucking swear everything is out to ensure I don't ever god damn stream. either I feel ill in some form or way, something is going on irl keeping me from doing it, OR SOMETHING BREAKS ON MY FUCKING PC. "oh I'm feeling okay today let's stream-" WRONG, WINDOWS CORRUPTION ERROR

god im pathetic

where i create from

i hate when i start feeling like people dont care because i know its untrue but my brain is . evil.

@alien-shmalien · Reject Reality The End is Never The End

NO ONE TOLD ME I POSTED A SECOND LINK TO MY STRAWPAGE INSTEAD OF AN ACTUAL LINK TO MY TUMBLR. FUCK www.tumblr.com/alien-shmalien

"sorry your package isn't here yet, it got caught up in customs" and other things I got to hear at least 7 times this morning lmfao

idk if I'm feeling manic because I'm attempting to not think about what's going on but GRAAHH. AAHHH. EXPLODES. I LOVE CHARACTERS

older jane and john doe from my forsaken au purgatory playground

they make me sick

Young Jane and John doe from my forsaken au Purgatory Playground

freaks

sighs

IRON LUNG IN MY LOCAL THEATRE LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I don't really know why I thought streaming would always go great for me. I'm so insanely socially awkward that I flounder basic small talk and I'm trying to do a very socially intense thing? idk. I can only hope my insane autism is endearing and not. boring.

and now I'm sitting here at 1am having to talk myself down from a metaphorical ledge of wiping all my socials and giving up again. ughh.

stream was kinda bad today on my brain, I psyched myself out so much like 10 minutes before that simply I was annoying as fuck and "evil" for wanting to mention the stupid roblox stuff and that's not great when you kinda. were planning on centering the stream around roblox art

the late night horrors are starting to get to me again.

grelliot

m gonna start posting more art n stupid doodles n shit here i think. reminder that my main is @alien-shmalien.bsky.social. i also have a strawpage alienshmalien.straw.page and a tumblr alienshmalien.straw.page

a drawing of artful, loveshot and artful's #1 fan in my die of death au. its framed as an old polaroid image with loveshot and the #1 fan hugging with a stuffed rabbit between them, and artful standing behind them holding up bunny ears behind them both. theyre standing infront of artful's stage. the polaroid has the words "mes laperaux" written on the blank space

a time long passed

loveshot and artful wip. idk how to explain this au in an understandable way lol

whats with roblox devs and seeming to fucking hate players/fans and working on their game

h

I JUST WANT WEED MAN KJHSDFGKJHKJSDFG

i need to take an edible

AO3 author curse but it's commissioned artist curse. shit keeps happening the second I take a commission so it takes far longer to do my work than it should

IM GOING TO FFFFUCKING MAUL SOMEONE <- understimulated

? why did i look that up?