Kelly ☯️🐲

Either way I guess that's basically what's up. I'm more comfortable on Tumblr so that's where I've been staying. I guess if anyone is interested in having that, just hit me up. Cant do art often because it hurts too much, so not much of that there. Otherwise I'm kinda disappearing again.

It's been two years since the incident that specifically traumatized me, almost two since I left, but the ways in which the person responsible has seriously damaged my ability to engage online and left me with some frustrating complexes is isolating at best. I'm disabled and offline is exhausting.

I ended up uninstalling Bluesky like a month ago because I figured out it was specifically triggering a lot of my neurotic tendencies. I won't get specific but I'm aware people who have hurt me badly are active here and, even with them blocked, I still can't engage without eventually spiraling.

I have been writing. A lot.

Yes I am insane and write almost strictly on discord. No I don't have the energy to alt text this. It's my two fool boys being gay (also this is when they decide to start dating).

I will now vanish into the void because I can't maintain my presence on two social medias.

Nude version to show off how his patternings look (though I did drop the stripes a bit lower on the right leg so it peeked from under his shoes on both sides and forgot to save that as a separate file).

Giving Sylvester a bit of a face-lift. It's been a year and a half since I originally drew him. (My DM also thanking me for varying my colors a bit more hehe).

Breemana's OC Lychen Lighthart a mage who is casting a spell

FINAL and Thirtieth #ArtFight Attack for @breemanaart.bsky.social

Off they go to rescue others! Was fun to draw the little trinkets on their staff!

#Art #Chibi

Cole: 🤬💭🗡️
Sylvester: 😶‍🌫️⚖️🧭
Ryndarth: 🐉🪄🏘️

If you buy an expensive disability aid, I'm begging you to read the instructions and not just assume because it's two size thumb screws and self explanatory. That's how you end up putting a hole through a $40 shower chair.

I'm gonna take a lighter to the plastic to melt it back down hopefully...

If the previous imaging did get everything before and this overhang of bone is new then... hahahaaaaa. We talk about psoriatic arthritis again because that sure would be bone growth wouldn't it? And the mystery bone spurs in my left foot too.

My previous imaging was looking at my SI joints so idk if they caught far enough down, but the actual issue is with my sockets. I have a pincer impingement on both sides and the right one has subchondral sclerosis. That would be why my gout likes my hip. It's congreating in that damaged joint.

Mmmm new shower chair coming in the maaail.

Also I did get new xrays (it's been over a year). Laughs nervously. My hips are not good!

I haven't drawn in over a month now besides a like half conceived pose sketch. Getting back into it after flares is rough, but apparently I was feeling lesbian dragons last night as my first attempt.

💛LETS SEE YOUR GLOW UPS💛
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2nd is my pngtuber and im not done with my sona ref sheet yet… :3
#animation #illustration #friendart #pngtuber

Puts the frown on the wrong space in the sentence asmr.

Yeah Bluesky is mean about gifs. But I love either way!! :(

✨LET'S SEE YOUR GLOWUPS✨

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Oh heckie yes! We love a wonderful glow up. 👏

Now I have to go to an appointment two hours away at 8:30am to argue about how it's always in my hips and yes it's weird please stop thinking of me as anything but a zebra. Steroids literally gave me spinal stenosis. I need my rheumatologist on board with the weird here. Out of the box thinking!

Me, wanting to do artfight:

The gout flare I failed to recognize was happening until the 26th obliteraring me all month:

I can't drink soda literally at all I see. TWO colchicine fixed everything. I feel great. Got zoomies.

Haha owie! That's double what it was a couple months ago no wonder I'm in so much pain lately. I'm inflamed af boi. Also would explain the consistent headache I suppose. That's actually the highest read we've ever caught.

Also why I'm glad my new pcp is cool with running this periodically.

My pain has been bad lately so I've been very much dissociating and hanging with friends. My focus while my pcp figures out where he needs to send me is why my ankles are trying to explode on me (so why I sprained them like eight times last year and why they're getting worse). I'm tired. 😩

Aaaah I'm sorry I haven't been around. I am incredibly medically burnt out and I won't be getting a break until September, though it's slowed down some at this point. My new pcp isn't sure where to send me for an enzyme deficiency so he has to do some digging and get back to me.

Me who just made this this morning because frozen concentrate is roughly half the price of regular orange juice and I'm frugal.

Dirty. Yucky. I kept leaning up against it and putting my hand on it. It just had to go and I had the energy today.

I ended up switching the flags because I think it's more powerful to have the lovewins flag outside right now, but eeeee. My little house makes me so happy. It did take me a couple hours to clean that siding though. I think the previous tenants used a grill on the porch.

My friend pointing out that moving away from my mother might have saved my life is not lost on me here. The fact that multiple people who refused to respect boundaries I put up when I said I was too stressed to handle something will never be lost on me honestly.

Oh lmao. Me putting together that an enzyme deficiency that affects steroid metabolization ALSO means I don't metabolize my own cortisol properly, so the hypercortisol reading was real, just normal production in a body that doesn't break it down well. So I also have to keep up with stress reduction.

Next steps are probably a medical geneticist at this point. I also don't process insulin or uric acid correctly and I'd like to have a full picture of what I need to be careful of. Enzyme deficiencies can be really scary.