❀ Maddy ❀ ⋆୨୧⋆

I’m so chopped fr

haven’t weighed myself in a hot minute tho, too scared

I feel like I actually look almost skinny todayyyyyyy

Ugh I’m sick again my immune system sucks so bad

literally same 😖 awful feeling

I’m gonna go with big cry bc I’m tired of holding it back lmao

Is it better to have a big cry or to suppress it???

I’m in the worst spot mentally that I’ve been since like May. Prob bc I stopped taking my ssri. Been on the verge of tears all day and just being miserable to everyone around me

Only Ever Yours by Louise O’Neill is the book that triggered me into this a few years ago

250lb body scan vs 125lb body can

need to have this done so I can use it to bully myself

I wish I could take one daily pill that has the perfect amount of nutrition so I’d never have to eat anything ever

Ive been paying more attention to the entire nutrition label, instead of just looking at the cals. Actively trying to increase protein and fiber without increasing cal intake

Same! Sugar addiction is no joke

I've got to lose weight.

I'm fat and stupid.

I have the dumbest and laziest brain ever

My bfs family is taking me on a surprise vacay to California and Hawaii next month, and that SHOULD motivate me to get skinny but it’s doing the opposite almost

Stay strong
Follow the plan not the mood

Quit taking lexapro last week to see if my appetite will decrease. I’ve been having heart palpitations though lmao

No, I'm not hungry. I'm just bored, tired, upset, thirsty, etc.
#⭐ving #anamia #edbsky #eedeesky

I’ve been carelessly drinking so much alc since the ice storm came through. I haven’t even dared to weigh myself bc I can see the puffiness in my face 😞

I love walking

Locking in!!!

#edbsky #edtwt #hungrycaterpillers #thinspo #blackspo #thin #ana #fatspo

I usually don’t eat breakfast but I had some fresh fruit today. My cravings have been so bad lately 😣

i am going to work hard for these.
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#workout #motivation #edtwt

I feel huge today but according to the scale I’ve maintained 🧐