Sam - a bookwyrm

Would it help if I just died

It's so lonely over here.

I feel so fucking useless

I'm extremely exhausted.

Currently reading an ARC by Kelvin VA Allison called Vigo. Oh it's good. So fucking good!

Updating socials just so you know I'm alive. I'm alive! And that's all that matters.

You're gonna regret coming back. I'm going to make sure that you will regret everything you've done or will ever do.

It is what it is

Ohmygosh ok so I haven't been here in a month! Currently reading Aunt Flo by Renn White!

Should I bump up my reading goal to 365 from 200?

If I let my intrusive thoughts win, they'd all be dead.

Ok so safe space from all the prying eyes. If I let these intrusive thoughts win, those people would honestly get a screwdriver in their noggin because what the freak?

Dollface is now available on Audible 😊🍒

The coolest, 💯

Okay, Motel Styx, I see ya.

Happy New Year!

I haven't been reading. I haven't been making content. This year has just burnt me out, and I'm ready for a new one.

Carietta Dorsch' reading voice may just be my favourite thing of 2024, she is a master storyteller!

I'm only missing Gyo. Junji Ito is my boy 💗✨️

Definitely Lady Dimitrescu

But I am wholly an EH/SP (extreme horror/splatterpunk) gal and whenever I try and read less provoking books, I feel like I need to immediately go back and read something gory.

So what was the point of this? Nothing. I just wanted to share my journey as a reader. Thank you for coming to my TED Talk

Fast forward to 2022, I got back into reading by falling into Elias Witherow's duology The Black Farm and Return to the Black Farm. This was a whole new genre to me despite reading Palahniuk, and it reeled me in, hook, line, and sinker. Now, I read some other stuff like thrillers and mysteries

So from ages 9-18, I have read Gaiman, Palahniuk, Sheldon, Preston, Child, Grisham, and a ton of classics such as Othello. Don Quixote, and some Shakespeare. Then I had an almost 7 year reading slump because of a controlling relationship, and I was hollow and empty.

When I got to college, I was introduced to an entirely new spectrum: classics. I admit that the classics didn't catch my interest as much as modern stories did, and by this time I was fully immersed in the Pendergast series by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child. I was also a huge Chuck Palahniuk fan.

From ages 9-13, I was reading everything I could get my hands on. I was a seasoned reader at this point, having read Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, and A Song of Ice and Fire, along with Twilight and a bunch of other stuff like Uglies, Divergent, The Hunger Games, and so much more.

Stumbled onto Stephen King, and at this point I was also reading a ton of Babysitters Club and Sweet Valley. Then I discovered Chuck Palahniuk when I was 9 years old. Forgot to mention that I had been consuming comics that weren't for children, such as the Sandman Chronicles by Neil Gaiman.

Also read a ton of children's books by Zilpha Keatley Snyder, Lynne Reid Banks, R.L. Stine, and Beverly Cleary. My next adult novel was The Client by John Grisham at age 6, and that was when I fell in love with true crime. It also helped that my father was into CSI and similar shows.

I consumed whatever I could reach on the bookshelf at the time, and I guess because of its heftiness, it intrigued me. I didn't understand a lot of the words then so calm down lmao. In between that and age 6, I consumed a lot of the fairytales that were prescribed for children.

Story time!

So I started reading when I was 3 years old. First book was a full ass novel titled A Woman Of Substance by Barbara Taylor-Bradford. Now you might frown upon my parents letting me read that, but in their defense, they were working fulltime jobs to support me.

I haven't been reading. Ugh.