*ೃ⁀➷ miaɳʜaɛ ✧.*

YO I haven’t posted in awhile. I guess social media hasn’t completely taken over my life yet.

zzz’s 1st anniversary will ALWAYS be peak to me. Here’s what I got with the pulls I’ve saved since January:

Yixuan M2W1
Pan Yinhu M6W5
Pulchra M6W5 (had M3W0)
M1W1 Astra Yao (had M0W1)

M1W1 Lycaon (was M0W1) & M2W1 Rina (was M2W0) from the anniversary claims.

I’m set to not pull for awhile?? 🥰

It’s like I’m not worth the solo company. Sometimes me being social is to my own detriment.

I just wanted to play alone with someone. I still have trouble navigating wanting to duo with someone 😭

I can’t be honest with him…

Sometimes I fear I “whale” on GI and ZZZ by how much I spend to get Xilonen C3R1, or what I spent on BPs over the course of 6 months basically f2p in ZZZ to get Miyabi M2W1…

But then I see a whale casually talking about dropping a $1K to E6S5 2 characters and I’m like??? WHAT DO YOU DO FOR WORK?!

Like I take a break from this app, too, and now Bluesky’s reputation, in the world of the VA’s and media alike, is tarnished.

What a fucking joke 🤣 at least Hero Hei is lighting these mfs UP LOL.

so word on the street is Genshin VAs and other VAs associated with Genshin roles are wilding on this damn app.

I joined this app to get away from cliquey, cringey people who have nothing better to do than tweet their close minded opinions at others who oppose their own.

Fucking Christ.

Who tf was gonna tell me cutscenes in amphoreous were like 10 minutes long. Fucking HELL

Having a crush on a guy who is kinda closed off is purely based on my own delusions. I’ve realized this…

Lmao

Yeah I just cracked my neck like 3 times and it’s been stiff ALL MF DAY.

Life is good 😭

I need to let my experiences be lessons that are ingrained in my person so I don’t fuck up again. I’m 25, let me get this shit together plsss.

Ya know as shitty as it is that I got backlash on Discord the other day, I wanna take that as an opportunity to show the future mod what they’ll go through if they make a wrong move with kpop fandoms.

Is that why I did it? Nah I’m just fucking stupid and irrational sometimes 😅

I’m wondering what my genshin duo does for a living cause he plays at like 2:00pm on most days… like I want that life fr!!

So the movie went well, btw. The girl next to me shyly got to her seat, pulled out a plush of one of the members (it was huge, I couldn’t tell who cause she came late) and then didn’t talk to me or interact with me the whole time.

Best thing to happen to me tbh since I’m introverted haha.

I’ve always thought I’d want to be a public figure on the internet, but I’ve just witnessed first hand a full on attack against me (it was respectful, but still) for a decision I made, and I think I’m just content with doing work behind the scenes.

Cause yikes, people will tear u apart.

I definitely need to learn to do activities on my own.

Idk if that’s some trauma or something. God I need therapy.

I’m about to go and see the zb1 movie by myself… I’m shitting myself at the anxiety I have right now

I'm taking myself out on a date to see the new ZB1 movie. I'm excited to be surrounded by other ZeRoses while undercover lurking in BLBL and popping into chat for 10 minutes max, hehe.

Should probably do some maintenance coding while blasting ZB1's whole discography tonight, I miss it.

Ren I fear you've underestimated the power of food in 2025.

um so something that was embarrassing that happened to me (and idek if he noticed) is that I attempted (and thankfully beat) floor 11 in the spiral abyss in Genshin with my crush coaching/watching when I shared my screen, but it made me cry at how hard that end game mode is...

floor 12? nah...

Um sorry if I haven’t been active. Genshin and Discord have been taking all of my time. Haha 😅

so as soon as my mind gets outta this funk, I’m gonna be coding and moderating on discord and connecting with friends like I used to… I’ve acknowledged this funk, now hopefully I can get the hell out of it. It sucks being trapped behind a lack of motivation.

Seeing everyone around me win their 50/50s is like the worse feeling ever… I’m never letting everyone know my pulling plans again, I just will pull 😭 that’s what’s gotten me so lucky in HSR.

I neeed primossss. Imma be grinding these next two weeks to the GODS

Lost my 50/50 for I believe the 3rd time in a row… I’m wondering if I should chance activating capture radiance for a c1 Furina.

And now I’m not going for Wrio unless I lose the 75/25 on furina’s weapon to his signature weapon.

AND AFTER I PLAYED F2P FOR YOUR FURINA? WTF GIRL.

True cause like what do you do when they aren’t actively promoting?? It’s so addicting to find a new song from a new group and deep dive into their content. 😮‍💨

I also haven’t been active on social media too much in the past few days… I had a minor accident on the bus that left me traumatized for a few days, and I’m only now just getting back to work.

I did do some retail therapy and scored myself a Silverwolf LC since I had some pity saved up… hah.

so Overwatch brought loot boxes back, and the gacha girlie in me is wanting to open them all up at the end of season weekend in order to get that fix. Maybe that means I’ll stop spending money on HSR and Genshin? 😂

I’m totally calling out tomorrow cause wtf