“…art to the world without expectation for its reception! Simple to say "this was me" in an effort to learn to love my self, and in effort to learn to learn to better labor moment by moment with my best effort not for validation or material reward- but for the principle of my souls growth.”

Mantra/prayer to start year 30- integrating many lessons:

“Feeling everything I feel all the way through- facing it all.
Gently encouraging my self to channel my most ferocious will with intention- as to manifest what is most aligned with the honest expression of my heart! And to leave that…”

To “be” is very difficult. Becoming more adjusted and comfortable “being” and loving who we are as we remain gently accountable for more growth and for the cherishing of our communities is all we can ask for. I am glad to be exactly who I am at 30!

Everyday is a journey through my inner world, becoming closer with my body, my emotions, and my mind! While I normalize and come to terms with every facet of “being”.

I have found my self emerging closer to the other end of the integration of all portions of my self- arriving through this doorway of self to meet a crowd of beautiful community, spoiled by so much love by those who are meant for me.

I turn 30 today yehaw! Farewell to as storied a trek through someone’s 20s I could imagine! What a portal of experiences in grief, pain, absurdity, silliness, and love! I’m so proud of who I am, and thankful for the healing I’ve done on my way to being more and more my self!!

There is only one ethical kind of Billionaire and that’s an ass billionaire. I have all the ass and YOU PEASANTS MAY HAVE NONE. I am stylish and dazzling… AND WILL FADE TO DUST… BUT FOR NOW THIS MOMENT. MY 30th is coming up on the 1st! ! 30 years moment by moment WITH ASS.

A version of me from the past was seen by a client of mine on a shelf in Japan!! 💖🌸🇯🇵 A 320lb meat freak! I’m turning 30 on April 1st and am thankful to be chilling at a healthy 270lbs on less drugs and doin all the yoga/to be back on the wreslting mats! Thankful for my 20s! I lived 10 lives in them.

Empires rise and empires fall- fading into eternity as nothing but a ghost impression of a fever dream memory in the mind of our mother Kali Ma. Everything that becomes- unbecomes. Everything but- my thunderous dump truck ass. Amen. 6ft1 of interstellar ass cheek.

As! It implies an acknowledgment of gender existing as a component expression of soul rather than anything somewhat biological”…. Like! If gender was only “biological” (it’s obviously not) then it wouldn’t matter if the soul/consciousness of a “man” was inside of Margot Robbie’s body.

I asked a couple straight friends if they would rail Margot Robbie if the soul of a man was in her body and they were both like “absolutely not”-

I found this very interesting and was like “hold up so- I feel like this is accidentally an argument for transness!!! AS….

‪I was born in Laramie, Wyoming- I am the queen of warrior broke back cowboys! They can not trick the rednecks for long! I am radically against them. I will die on that hill. It says “queer” on my throat so they don’t forget to come for me when they come for my people! I am with the people!

the immigrant, the trans person, the Muslim or the jew- it is not the cowboy or migrant worker! It is the ruling elite hoarding wealth like gluttonous dragons watching us bicker while they point their fingers from their resort didler islands and fund proxy wars.‬

‪The enemy is becoming more and more obvious! The enemy rises from its closeted cuck lair out into the forefront and the division of our political parties exists no longer as the people across all spectrums collectively realize that our enemy is not the gay, the person of color…

Hold to account the complacent YT liberal feigning advocacy without risking their own skin and benefiting from their privilege within the structures put in place by the YT capitalist patriarchs. They are the enemy of abolition. They have enabled the coward fascists cucks with their own cowardice.

Spiritually they are dead. They could get rid all of us and they still lose- in the karmic story of the universe! All their money! All their greed! All their power they desperately leverage for- it means nothing.

I’ve never been prouder my footprint being a redundant rhetoric of “Fuck the powers that be and when they take my life one day- let it be known I was in my values and stood by all the earths people! And that they will face me for their cowardice and bitchassery in eternal combat in the void”.

I will never sit at a table you can all not eat at. Everyone of you. Expression of gender, color, shape or size.…

It’s told among the stars and old gods that there was no being larger, more cheeky, and more playfully confusing to the populous to witness than HE (me) who embodys the slutty wholesome heart driven ethical slut of sexual fluidity! He be goddess! He be Titan of meat!

This is my favorite bit- it is funny because it plays with use of the word gay as being something “lame” (Circa 2005) while also citing it as something which implies homosexual sex acts. It states that minimum wage jobs are more “gay” (lame) than actual gay sex. GET IT???

The gayest thing I’ve ever done is work at a deli cleaning fryers and the second gayest thing I’ve ever done was my gay porn career in which I had gay sex with hundreds of men.

The gym! Is not a replacement for therapy. (From his most highest high-level-lifting porn guy)…. And although goals are great for giving us meaning! They are not a replacement or distraction from facing the feelings that we need to face/allocating the proper time to do so.

Muah!!!!

Greetings from the intersection of Gaia’s soul and the eternal om-humming safe dark ever after I.E. the position of the cosmic muscle goddess’s throne of fluid service topping and poetry dropping. By the powers that be in combination with my will- he arrives on this app.