🔪Rotten_Chihuahua🔪

That's an interesting way to feel dysphoric to a horrible point...
Well.. not me by accident and for the first time seeing my reflection on the shower handle....
I feel so disgusting....

Finally was able to make a progress in eating less.. finally...

Not me calorie tracking again...
I went from under eating to ever eating...
I need to get my intakes lower...
Man I will try my very best as I don't want my weight to go back up.... I'm already way too much up

Amo rascarme los huevos todo el día... de verdad que si.

Reminder to myself... don't let cut patterns sit out for loo long...
It has been a while since I cutt part of copitos pattern and I have no idea how things are anymore.. I will hueva to redo the pattern and cut more fur...
What a wait of fur aka money lol

Might continue tomorrow. My mind is dead... especially I'm not ready for this one 💀

I just want to finish...

5/8 and it has just taken me..... 2 hours?! 😭

I'm already tired and I'm just 1/8 pages... my body hurts...
Oh but the kid wanted to learn Chinese lol
I don't blame the language but my crusty body at the gym 3 days in a row... tbh

Today he talked a lot with our floor coach and looked at me...
Why do I feel like he wants to talk to me as well?!
Why does he pass in front of me, and im not able to even say hi...
I feel so horrible and pathetic

I wish I wasn't sure a pussy to talk to him...
Why the fuck I feel so scared to talk to him?! He's just a normal guy?! What am I afraid of?!
I feel horrible to even be amscared to talk to him...
It is not like I want anything with him.. I just want to befriend him...

I feel so disassociated... nothing feels real.... I out of the sudden want just a plushie and a movie... to cry... might be little coming?... sounds like it
Damn it ... I feel so lost

Ik sis... it is just a horrible sensation with a whole lot of impotent feeling

Once again, the thought of why I even try... no matter how my voice chances... my chest is flat.... or any facial hair will help me be okay with myself... I'm a joke of a man... why do I even try....
It doesn't matter what I do, I'll always be something I'm not to the world....

I just... want to cry

I'm feeling so weird tonight...
I feel so weird.... I'm... I'm like I'm not me... I feel like floating?... wdf....
Might take my meds and sleep.. I might be overly tired

Let's see how this poetry turns out..
I might get indpo to write again

I feel so contact repulsive rn.. don't touch me... don't hug me.. i feel so disgusted by the idea...

Alba is the on I yone who my have a pass on this bc he is not real...other than that don't get near me plz

Ngl... I feel so weak... I went back to no weight at the gym bc I can't handle any weight...
Sometimes I miss ekon just bc he used to keep us strong enough to do anything....
I feel so pathetic missing an alter...

It is okay np

You also have EDS?

Smae, book... same

My hips and legs are killing me BADLY
I didn't do anything today why does my body hurt so much
Fuck you eds

I feel like it has been a while since I draw?
Idk when was the last time I drew? It can't be that long?
I have a commission on my queue... and I still have to draw all my boys...
I just feel so tired

I had so much planned today...
But taking my luggage apart took almost all my spoons

These last few days dysphoria is hitting hard... I ducking hate shark week... it brings me so down...
And even if I try to fight it back it stills shows up as it is just too much to handle