tart

and also i always think about like everyone i care about, like even i haven't interacted with them in years
i think, i imagine, i worry
with only myself to listen
thats my way of showing respect
because you dont deserve to be forgotten, and i wont let you be

i like archiving like everything about my life
like i never leave any discord group or server because i dont want anything to be lost
even the ones full of awful memories and pain
even if i never ever read anything

never thought i would ever met the definition of evil itself
always heard of cruelty but never seen it myself
torturing me and enjoying every second of it
until i eventually kill myself, only then you would be satisfied
how is your existence possible
how can you live
how
god i fucking wish you die

meh who knows

nothing to lose

just gonna listen to my heart again from now on

nothing ever had to be complicated

see you on the next journey

its way too late isnt it

watch as i forget my lesson and go back to it the next day

sweet dreams

im gonna stop posting i think
im giving up
by trying to fix myself i just made a worse person
everything is gonna fade away that is all i see
im going blind and gonna listen to my guts again
i was so wrong
i just kept erasing myself
i hope its not too late
i hope its not too late
to be me
for u

i force myself to dream
but i wish i never had to wake up again like that

i prefer constantly having nightmares than having sweet dreams and panicking once i go back to reality
that nightmare you cannot wake up from

dreamt that i had nothing to worry about anymore
just peace
than i woke up
and i was in the exact same dream
i woke up
i woke up
again and over again
each time praying i wasnt dreaming
then i woke up for real and it hits like a truck everytime

out of my sight

btw future person please tell me ill have a funny death 🙏

honestly i dont expect anyone to read anything i post jere
im mainly writing stuff for after i die
cuz i know people will search for more of me so thats just what im providing
or if i dont die so soon i wont forget the past to avoid it
hope ur entertained reader

i dont know

to clarify to whoever stalks my profile
yes i am fine nothing happened it is just how life has been for the past year or so

in this silence
all i can hear are my thoughts
i dont know what other people think about
mine only make me feel awful
cant stop hearing them
i constantly miss your sound
muffling those noises

im so fucking selfish
i absolutely hate depending of others
but here i am
clinging to whatever i have left
watching everything slowly drift away
then one day only void will be left
sparks of hope i get sometimes
but it always end up the same
my mind against myself
nothingness taking over
ashes

im nothing but a pet
incapable of living for myself
all i do is rot waiting for whatever i live for
no one really cares but like when u become nothing, nothing is the only thing to care about
nothing nothing and nothing
i hate nothing
i wanna bash nothing against a wall until nothing pass out

im sorry

idk

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watched skibidi toilet recently
that thing is so high quality for a shitpost
genuinely impressed

around the world
a-round the wooorld
around the world
a-round the woorld
aroun

u can easily tell how im feeling depending of how much i snack
either tons or none, no in-between
most of the time because i dont wanna be awake and i wanna take the least time possible to go back dreaming asap
snacks might relieve sadness a bit, but thats nothing compared to friends

stress

guys sorry i have been hiding it for so long but i am jesus, woke jesus

impossible