EquisXMunch 🔞🎨 [Not a Nashe]

There's a chance I might being finally retiring for good... from my Bluesky account :3

Very simple, the reception I received on Twitter encouraged me further to keep posting my art there. This is NOT a goodbye, but a "I'll still be around".

I'm trying to be a little more compassionate with myself, and I'm writing this here because I need a cathartic outlet, and what better way than to communicate with you? I don't know if I'll have a different mindset tomorrow, but I have faith that this internal struggle will end, one way or another.

I shouldn't feel bad for other's successes, but, I was raised in a bad way. Mistakes were not accepted, questioning was not allowed, and if I did, shouting and manipulation were what I got in return. I still live with a dichotomous mindset; "Either I do it perfectly, or I don't do it at all."

Fighting envy is very, very... very hard, but possible. Today I just dedicated a drawing to a friend I was about to break up with, but I ended up making a draw for him. I still feel envy, so much envy, it's fine to feel envy, but I try to prevent it from taking control over my actions.

Theelegyofasoul's Elegy Leopardo Shark ass [Birthday giftz]

So a mf follower sent me lolicon and gore just because I did not like a fanart they made for me. I mean I'm not that mad, I don't usally recieve this much attention, so I'm glad a person cares this much about me 😊

Theelegyofasoul's Elegy sketches

I finally decided it was the best for me to end the friendship. I managed to cut all communications among this person and me. It's better for me if I'm not close to them any longer. We shouldn't be toghether. I'M SIMPLY NOT GOOD ENOUGH, WHY DID I CAME BACK? I WISH I HAD NEVER KNOWN OF RULE 34

capable to achieve. The further I scrolled, the worse I felt. Until it happened, the anxiety attack. I tried as hard as I could to not make any noise, so I wouldn't wake my parents up. I saw my Jevil draw, disappointed, I thought my efforts on being an artist were futile, and at the moment, I do

I can't sleep... I just broke up a friendship. I had a relapse yesterday, but today, it was even worse. I had an anxiety attack, the strongest one so far. I was wandering off on Twitter, and decided to look up my friends name, big mistake. Their art is... something else. It's something I'd never be

Jevil ass

I just had a relapse

i just erased it

im not finishing this shit. Btw, the Peabody one neither

Ralsei flash in color [Not doing the rest xd] [The tree in the background is just an image, I did not create it]

Ralsei ass

Submissive cute little boy wip [Pausing the Peabody one since I lack of ideas and/or motivation for it. Might finish this one first]

Few care about this, but I'm turning 19 next February 23rd. I might be buying my first commission, unless that kills my wallet... xd

MrOtterBreath's Beelzebutt in color [It's amazing how I now goon to a fucking difficulty face from Geometry Dash]

nerdy ass wip

MrOtterBreath's Beelzebutt [Best drawing so far??]

turning out very well (WIP)

@onion-light.bsky.social 's beeg bootie Pika in color [Probably not doing the rest cuz I'm lazy]

sneak peek

Jeff The Phatass Killer (kinda inspired by bwl)

Gonna be making MrOtterBreath's Beelzebutt soon

@inuzu.bsky.social's cutie booty doggy boy Inu

killer phatass biatch wip

I forgot to mention xd, they are one of the people who inspired me to start drawing

I've learnt few things, not really talking about drawing though, but the way I manage my thoughts. I concluded, that when I simply don't want to draw, I won't. I began this hobby not to satisfy anyone, but for pure enjoyment, and that's how I want it to keep going. In other words: Fuck anatomy :3