Jet Noir

Today was my last scheduled dance performance until 2026. My body is looking forward to a two month dance break. November & December will be filled with studying, training, healing, and plotting my artistic ambitions for the coming year.

Welp, now I can say that I have TWO acts in my repertoire that leave me emotionally spent and/or crying.

Tonight’s performance - the Broken Priest act - left me shaking and overcome with an abundance of adrenaline. I screamed and cried afterwards, but there was no pain, no sadness, just passion.

Just saw a Feeld profile that listed people with ADHD as a hard pass, non-starter

Damn, people screening for neurotypical vibes now?

Welp, good luck on your boring ass dates I guess 🤷🏿‍♂️

-Petty Pendergrass

When a friend no shows for dinner plans, it feels no different than being stood up on a romantic date.

Where is this featured in media? Is there a platonic comedy genre? “PlatCom” flicks with meet cutes about friendship?

If I had known there’d be this much walking, I prolly would’ve put on some draws

-a memoir

Turns out taking 🍄 and trying out new progressive lenses at the same time is not the business 😵‍💫

Both of us have to want the experience, in order for it to be good

All of us have to want the experience, in order for it to be good

^consent

Thursday, night job: I’ll dress up like a priest, perform a fan dance, and then strip down to pasties and a thong. 🕺🏿

Sunday, day job: I’ll be giving a two minute speech during an actual church service. 😳

14 year-old me would be both perplexed and somehow pleased to know this

IT’S MY BIRTHDAY!

I want to spend 7 minutes giving or receiving pleasure with all who have the mutual desire. If you and I could be hedonists, what experience would you like to create together? Making out, 🍑 massage, noods, cunning linguistics, and more are possible. DM me and let’s talk about it.

Luther, If Only For One Night, just came on in the Kava bar. Me and the bartender started singing along and a couple began kissing.

I aspire to create art that has that sort of impact.

It feels cool to have my pic on the front page of KQED today.

I just really wish they’d asked ME for my name instead of just printing my government name.

This morning I got my first prescription for progressive lenses. Since the age range for this is 45-55, my doctor kind of “congratulated” me on making it to 48 before needing them? Good for my eyes, I guess 🤷🏿‍♂️

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Not all therapists are equally skilled, but maybe a therapist doesn’t have to be considered “bad” if you just emotionally dump for an hour and never let them talk!

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You know that feeling when you’ve worked on a presentation for weeks, you pulled an all-nighter to have it ready (thanks Red Bull), then you find out that the meeting has been pushed back a few days so now you can actually finish it with a bit more polish?

^ THAT feeling!

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Whenever I see an animal, I “telepathically” tell them that I’m a friend and that they don’t need to be worried. I love that the squirrels in our yard will eat walnuts out of my hand.

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Grateful for compassionate co-dancers who express genuine concern for my healing. Happy that I was able to at least be present at rehearsal for blocking despite my temporary inability to dance.

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I’ve lived in the Bay Area for “I’m seriously considering hiring an Astrologer” years.

I recently heard back from some new-to-me relatives. It wasn’t through an app. I found a family reunion email address in some old papers. Over a year later, someone called me back.

Grateful for family reconnections that happen in organic ways.

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Growth can’t happen in an echo chamber.

Grateful for this mantra. It has taught me to learn from people who disagree with me.

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I am not intimidating, you are intimidated.

Grateful I’ve learned the difference because it has kept me from thinking I’m the problem when I’m just existing.

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Just blocked, reported a couple on Feeld that was seeking a “BBC.”

Casual use of this term encourages me to reboot my workshop: Unpacking Racial Fetishization in Sexually Charged Spaces (and Everyday Life).

You can enjoy dick for any reason, if the reason is race then you’re a rac!st.

Today is my one year Lociversary. Grateful that I chose to commit to this journey. It may sound funny, but I love that my locs are now long enough for me to always keep hair ties on me as a necessity. (New pics coming later.)

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Self awareness doesn’t always elicit gratitude. Grateful that I’m self aware enough to realize how my actions impact others. But, sometimes that awareness comes after the harm has been caused and regret appears. I still appreciate the better-late-than-never self awareness.

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There is no such thing as easy discipline, but that doesn’t mean that all discipline is arduous.

Consistency is the key that supports me, helps me to evolve and grow.

Grateful for this mantra.

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Many things I dislike in others are things I dislike in myself.

While this isn’t a new concept, I’m grateful for the evergreen reminder.

Judge not, lest ye be judged and all that jazz.

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Psilocybin
Got me vibin
Some even say
Iss the silliest eye been
On shrooms worth prescribing
Upwards I’m diving
Mental acuity thriving
Seeing better flicks than the drive-in

Grateful for what 🍄 do to my brain

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Grateful that my lived experience has helped me develop the skill of reading people. I can spot when people are being fake and that has kept me free from a lot of bullshit.

I’ll always prefer that you tell me you don’t FW me rather than have you smiling in my face.

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Something I love about us is when Black men start singing, whether the skill is there or not.

It soothes me to bear witness to the soft expression coming from someone, like me, who has been socialized to be “tough.”

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Grateful for how having locs has changed my relationship with all of my hair. I now have the courage to attempt growing a beard.

“Men don’t look better with age, they just develop better fashion sense and figure out how to style their facial hair.”

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