m

I should not be bothered, however, I am a sensitive little shit

I'm so awesome and hot and great and totally stable

ooooo that's fucking with my head Real Bad

I feel so mentally ill

Granted I'd rather most people not see these cause Wow That's Certainly Something (Mental Illness)

I want feedback but I'd rather shove my head through a wall than the subject of most of these ever see what I wrote

I have written such good, raw poetry in the past like half year but I can't post ANY of it now

I just feel like crying to my pb&j idk man

I have been genuinely fucked up since they did what they did and now I am just trying to not let the ever gaping wound they left get in the way of me being kind and loving still

trying to be a good friend to someone who hurt me so badly that it intrinsically rewired my brain

I am
I am not doing too hot rn

Scared I'm making a mistake rn lol

moss lock in. lock the fuck in.

me @ myself rn

I need someone to remind me that I'm supposed to be proceeding with caution rn instead of chatting like nothing happened

I think so??? I got some actual? Clarity and closure about some shit?

I think I'm okay??? I'm?? Getting an actual apology??? From the ex fp from back in March?????

yeah no idk what's going on but I'm not vibing with it (I am currently so anxious that I'm shaking)

Having two different people I used to be involved with decide to hit me up within 24 hours of each other feels like some sort of planetary shenanigan

Oh fuck oh no oh FUCK

I'm gonna throw UP

this is both rhetorical and a joke

who wants to take one for the team and cuddle me

I ammmm touchstarved

trying to recenter myself while actively splitting cause my friend absolutely crossed a line and I feel like they were incredibly thoughtless about this butttt it could just be the illness yk

the mental illness.. it's mental illnessing

I have been sleeping so terribly again. It's just nightmares and weird dreams and waking up exhausted.

dealing with the fact that I probably will end up having a low to no contact relationship with my dad once I move out cause he has made it Incredibly Clear in the past few months that he does not give a shit

that feels weird man idk

hm.