Cin

My main btw

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I don't hate them
I don't think I ever could
We were both stupid kids, and despite the hurt I don't fault them

I hope their life will go well some day and that they can escape the life they're trapped in right now
But I refuse to drown with them

It's so weird now that they're a stranger
I knew every inch of them
I could sit with them in silence while we just did nothing
How does someone you held so close
Poured your heart and soul into
Become a stranger over night

I finally mailed one
Maybe they'll respond
Maybe they won't
I think this was a bit of closure I needed tho

I think my cat is going to pass away soon and I don't know what I'm going to do.
She's been with me my whole life and I know time is running out

I can't wait to graduate
My hair is literally fucking thinning because of how stressed I've been with school
I need to get out of here

When mental illness mental illnesses a bit too hard

Remember, it's everyone's first time living too. It's okay to make mistakes and it's okay for others to do the same.

Ocd: you must respond to them immediately so they know you're not ignoring them and you're a good friend
Also ocd: if you respond to fast you're weird and they'll think you're desperate

I

Was bullied

And then

I cried

And then

I died

The end

😀

The trio of vent accounts
May we unite

I'm like residential lurker
I'm always there
But I'm not there

I yap a lot but I also just watch most of the time

I might order henna
I realized the only time I feel good about myself is when something is painting my skin

I value many of the situations I went through because they really taught me something
But at the same time I was still a kid
A kid who didn't know

Im both doing better mentally then I was a few years ago but at the same time I'm doing worse
I guess it's just different stages
I see how far I've come but I've just fallen in a different hole that now I need to get out of again
It's a cycle

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I have written letter after letter that have all gone unsent because I'm scared to send them
They pile on my desk waiting for the day I sign them and ship them off
But that day will probably never come

I wish people could spend time in my mind and body
I just want people to understand me
There's a limit to understanding everyone has for one another and unfortunately for most people that understanding doesn't seem to reach my illnesses mental and physical

Now to actually use this

Watch me not use this after making kasp hunt for it

Boo

I'm horrible with words
I think all the time yet when it comes to expressing to others the thoughts in my head I find I am lost
I feel bad being unable to express to people all the words they can express to me
I know I'm dry but I can't seem to help it no matter how many words I seem to put on paper

Hi
This is my vent to be ill on
Feel free to stick around
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