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Proof of life check in: I'm still here, just staying focused on art currently. Enjoy a couple progress and practice pics.

#watercolor #art #mixedmedia #practice

CW: suicide

I'm no longer at risk after 12 days in the hospital, I got out on Monday. I terrified everyone I love, and I still don't know what made me try. I'm now officially diagnosed as having major depression, major anxiety, and PTSD.

It's time to embrace this chance at a new beginning

Well, we will do what we do best and continue to drag the monsters into the light where they belong so they can't escape to continue to prey on others ever again.

Neil Gaiman goes directly into the trash. Forever.

Sometimes I just want to drive out to stand right in front of the void. Not to scream, but to cry, because that's the only place I feel safe to let all the deep sadness/emotions/thoughts out without being judged for it. It's the one place my mind shuts up so I can let it all out.

#sadgirlshit

I made chili for dinner tonight. It's been cold as hell, so I figured chili would be nice to eat. And yes, I know my stove needs to be cleaned off. If you blink around a gas stove, it looks like a wasteland of food scraps and drips. This is the only time I miss electric stoves 🤣

Hepatic Encephalopathy or HE, is from having ammonia build up in my brain due to my liver not being able to process it. There are many symptoms of this but my current is full body tremors and inability to remember certain words & it sucks. Gonna go drink more lactulose now

#cirrhosis #ESLD #NASH

I'm just over halfway through crocheting this hat thing now for the youngest

She still wants it to have cat ears too.

Well, I'm about halfway through the neck warmer balaclava piece of BLO single crochet rows before I can make the hooded portion, so... 1/4 of the way done? It's a WIP. It's a discontinued lion brand heartland color called cuyahoga valley. The kid loves it so far 🥰

#crochet #fiberarts #crafting

SHO'NUFF!!

Well, what better mood setter than to watch Barry Gordy's the Last Dragon on Netflix in anticipation for a boxing match? I can think of nothing better while I keep working on my crochet project atm.

Hell yes, it's Sho'Nuff the Shogun of Harlem and Bruce Leroy time 😍 plus classic Vanity too!!!

Oh yeah! Check out @sloppjockey.bsky.social as well, their pieces are both beautiful and grotesque are amazing as well!

You'd probably dig @thisisradinsky.bsky.social i very much enjoy their art and posts!

Today’s advice from your Goth Auntie
-Stop slouching, drink some water, take your meds.
-Grab any bit of joy you can. Joy is an act of rebellion.
-The tiny cryptids want to bake a cake. The Madwoman in the Attic is apprehensive about this idea.
❤️ Auntie Jilli

Oh my gosh, thank you!

The card for my neighbor is done. Does it need to be perfect? Nope. Do I care that it's not? Nope. It's more about the caring for someone than the perfection, it's a hobby after all, and I do get sand grain in size better each time. I hope it cheers her up some.

#watercolor

Before the great fall yarn stash dig starts, I'm waiting for this watercolor to dry a bit before doing anything else. It's for my sweet neighbor across the street, because love and support is free and can come in any form. I wanna bring her a light in the dark through kindness and empathy.

Its time to pull out the yarn and either my knitting needles or crochet hooks, my 8 yo is complaining about being cold already.

My guts are in full on panic mode with the gurgles. I also forgot to eat like a dipshit. I am not a smart human today. At all.

Does this look okay for the date?

WHY AM I CATASTROPHICALLY NERVOUS??!

ugh... please go well, date 😭

...but did you Come Original? 🤔

It's okay, I will go put myself in timeout for that 🤣

Sometimes all you need is to have a date planned to wake back up. I missed makeup. I missed doing my nails. None of these are required for a date though, I do it for myself. It's my physical self hype when I lack any self esteem or confidence in me.

#mooncat #forbiddencove #goth #selfcare #makeup

YAAAAAS!!!!!! Hi!!!! 😍🥰

Weak

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... well that's the fastest I've smashed the follow button on here!

Today i spent time teaching my youngest the fun in doing leaf printing! We used acrylic paints, daubbers, and leaves we collected! I'll add more layers to mine later. She said she's done with hers lol

#art #fall #natureprint #fallleaves #bondingtime #goblinmom #kidcrafts #fun #acrylic #paint

What I wanted: a lap cat
What I got: a stretched out doom noodle digging her void claws into my ankle while she sleeps.

A small watercolor painting of a horrified looking cartoon dumpling.

My phone just auto corrected "trauma dumping" to "trauma dumpling," so I painted this in case anyone would like a visual of my mental state.

How's everyone else doing?

being an artist is simple

Step 1 : make coffee
Step 2 : get absorbed by drawing & forget about coffee
Step 3 : get a sip of cold coffee (nightmare realm experience)
Step 4 : repeat cycle

I'm an old chaos goblin. I'm new here.Plz send me you smut writers of the monster variety, the horror book and movie homies, the painters of all varieties, the fiber art afficionados, and everything in between. Lets fill my feed with everything I absolutely love & people I can support and learn from