Chwisp

Oof my self esteem has been really hurting lately.....
Whenever i see photos of myself i just feel so... upset? I know I shouldn't compare myself to others and all that, but it's so hard not to.....

AAHHHHH i just wanna scream into the void rn!!!
i dunno if it's my lack of sleep lately or what, but my mood has just been tanked the last couple of days..... I've been having such a great time with friends too, so why am i feeling so shitty? 😢

hhhhhhhh work has been so stressful lately.... I really need to book a counsellor cause I'm really having a hard time man

I miss being able to enjoy romance stories, I used to love them but now it just feels too painful to get into it....

I understand that this is not an uncommon fear, but it still feels so isolating and painful. Trying to protect my heart is actively hurting it more, and i have no idea how to turn it around.

I suppose it also opens me up to accepting validation for my feelings that i think are strange and make no sense.... For example, my fear of opening myself up to rejection amd embarassment. I have a hard time building deep personal relationships because im scared of getting emotional with people...

I wonder why I have an easier time using a vent account as a journal instead of a physical book to write in.
Is it because this is public and can therefore act as a way to express my worries to friends in an indirect, and therefore less vulnerable, way?

I saw a post that said "Do not trust what you think of your life after 9pm" and honestly I am so glad for that rn lmao.

Just really haven't been feeling the Single Life™ lately and kinda down about it. Just gotta keep reminding myself that it will happen when I'm ready for it. This too, shall pass.

I hate how I only think to be productuve at times when i have no energy, and then when i *do* have energy i forget to do the productive things i wanted to do 😭
*cries in executive dysfunction*