xander (tw vent acc)

till...

I only live to take what hurts and hard it to the world. I cannot sorrow without televising it. sometimes I can't feel the pain because I'm too busy wondering how it'll look to others. how can I be both sad and emotionless at the same time

please don't abandon this

woops forgot I wasn't on main

:(🫂

my gf doesn't even want to talk to me lol

me too it's okay

a woman with a shaved head covering her face with her hands ALT: a woman with a shaved head covering her face with her hands

the concept of that I am alone in how I feel and no one will truly understand me I will constantly be seen as the stain of humanity

if it's bothering you then it is an issue

I swear you can talk to me till🫂

I'm better now. it still hurts in pulses but I'm okay

I was hyped for weeks for this day. weeks. n I did nothing. all for what

I hate this I hate myself I hate and hate and hate I will never stop punishing myself

life is okay wait life isn't horrible there's always a way to fix what's aching in myself

I can't fix things I can't fix them what am I supposed to do if I'm not fixing what am I supposed to exist for I was supposed to die in the womb and the only reason I was born was to help people if I can't help them I should just die

I miss leo so much that I wish I brought my knife

I miss my girlfriend

idk

I live such a fucking privileged life it would be the bare minimum if I gave up my soul as apologies

I just really hope each of my close friends stop hurting I would do anything for that. yeah I care for my mutuals and I want their lives to be painless but I think it'd be neat if I took all my oomfs problems and then just died with them

I hope keith is okay man I feel really bad for him I think the whole situation is fucked up and keith isn't blameless but neil is. being REALLY weird. idk I feel bad

i want to take away all my friends' pain and experience it for them. I want them to be happy and I want to be punished

I think it's best to talk to him about it :( let him know you don't reciprocate and you feel uncomfortable :(

this is all my fault when you were gone and I was borrowing it I actually dropped it and broke it . so I replaced it with bisexuality and just painted the gay flag over it 😓 sorry I didn't tell you....

I'm glad you feel like you can talk about it🫂🫂 please do if you're comfortable it's good to talk about this stuff, especially if you're trying to figure out what and who you are . people can often help, or even just saying it in a publicish area can get those cogs turning onwhat you're ready to use!

transmascs who r bi with male pref we can rule the world

either way it's really up to you.... what are you most comfortable with ya know...

ofc <3

but now? I'm so happy to call myself a sapphic achillean!!! I even mention achillean a bit more, because I'm most comfortable with that.

we grow and change. our labels can too. we can also realize what we called ourselves wasn't accurate. either way, please don't be scared 🤍 ik it's hard

I was TERRIFIED when I realized I wasn't just sapphic. ik my attraction to girls is more sapphic, hence me being a sapphillean, but for me to say I wasn't just sapphic? that I was also Achillean? it was scary because that label meant a lot to me, even through things like overcoming religious shame

you don't HAVE to let go. you can have an odd identity or keep going by one or the other or even go by unlabeled. but if bi with guy pref feels right to you? then I encourage you to use it! it's scary at first, but it'll get easier. you'll love that label too, eventually