MJ

86. Ethel Cain - Nettles

That picture on the wall you're scared of looks just like you
I wanna bleed, I wanna hurt the way that boys do
And maybe you're right and we should stop watchin' the news
'Cause, baby, I've never seen brown eyes look so blue

87. Ethel Cain - Sun Bleached Flies

If it's meant to be then it will be
I forgive it all as it comes back to me

88. Wolf Alice - Don't Delete the Kisses

What if it's not meant for me?
Love

89. Lorde - Ribs

You're the only friend I need
Sharing beds like little kids
And laughing 'til our ribs get tough
But that will never be enough

90. Self Esteem - Girl Crush

I've got it on my mind but I'm not your tour guide
Baby, what you want to do?
You haven't had enough, I like being shown off
Baby, just let in your truth

Bear cuddles make everything better

Also mine and my husband's relationship is legal drinking age, so that's nice!

Check out this painting I did while one of my students was doing Art today!

Today I woke up and immediately felt sad but I've had a good day at work immediately followed by a huge hug from my mum so I guess I'll be okay.

You can take the girl off the council estate...

I've had to warn my friends how insufferable I'm going to be

Some other things I fixate on are:
F1
Books
Live music
Trashy 00s reality TV
Darts but specifically at Christmas
Attitude-era WWE

If any of this is you feel free to stick around

91. John Grant - Marz

I wanna go to Marz
We'll meet the Gold Dust Twins tonight
You'll get your heart's desire
I will meet you under the lights

92. Fontaines D.C. - Starburster

I wanna keel
Over harder than a turned up challenger
I wanna keep all of your charm in a canister
Do you inspire like the same did Salinger?
I′m the pig on the Chinese calendar

93. The Last Dinner Party - The Feminine Urge

Do you feel like a man when I can't talk back?
Do you want me or do you want control?

94. King Princess - The Bend

But I just wanna feel again, I just wanna wash my hands
And I should make an OnlyFans, smoke a little contraband
Why you so emotional, why you always on a ten?
'Cause I don't think that I'm living

95. Ethel Cain - Crush

I owe you a black eye and two kisses
Tell me when you wanna come and get 'em

One thing Eurovision fan media helped me realise again was how much I love writing and podcasting.

I really wanna keep doing that so if there's anything you'd gladly read or hear me yap about please help a sis out

Eurovision wasn't just a contest for me: it's become my creative outlet, an opportunity to travel the world, and the space where I met some of my best friends in the world.

I am grateful for all of this but as of today I no longer want any part of it.

Fuck the EBU. Fuck Israel.

96. Self Esteem - Fucking Wizardry

So I'll leave you on read
I don't care how you feel about it
I wish you all the best
It was almost fun while it lasted
I say almost, I mean it

97. Soft Play - Punk's Dead

Johnny Rotten is turning in his bed
I was gonna say grave, but the fucker ain't dead

98. She Drew the Gun - Something For the Pain

Justice rolled like water and the paradigm shifted
Freedom was the reason, but the script had got twisted
And so we moved onto this significant junction
A legitimate function of the means of production

99. Wolf Alice - Smile

I have power, there are people who depend on me
And even you have time you wish to spend on me
And now you all think I'm unhinged
But wind it up and this honeybee stings
Did you think I was a puppet on strings?
Wind her up and this honeybee sings

100. Wet Leg - catch these fists

This always happens late at night
Some guy comes up says I'm his type
I just threw up in my mouth
When he just tried to ask me out
Yeah, don't approach me
I just wanna dance with my friends

As I did last year, I will be posting my favourite lyric from each of the songs in my Spotify Wrapped!

Expect some repeats because I have never gotten over anything ever.

The feminine urge to disappear because my friends and family shouldn't have to endure me when I'm like this 🙃

'Mum I won't hear you say 'What's wrong with Bisto?' this year.' I am creasing!

'My feeling is instead of doing loads of shit half arsed we fucking nail these eight dishes' Didn't realise Gordon Ramsey was coming to my house...

I forgot my brother coming home for Christmas meant he would be running dinner like the navy. He's made us jump on a call that started with 'I've indulged a lot of shit over the years'

Was feeling a bit blue about Christmas this year but now my brother in Hong Kong is flying over to spend it with us. Just grabbed a coffee in town while waiting for the bus, bumped into a colleague and had a chat and now I'm feeling -dare I say - kinda festive???