fel

randomly remembering that time i was watching martyrs on thanksgiving and my food suddenly stopped tasting good

it didn't hurt as bad yesterday but now that I've fully slept and the adrenaline is gone i'm like

hm. yes. this doesn't feel normal.

me: sees buddies in vc
me: puts on headset to go in
body: hey aren't you still tired from your sister's wedding
body: hey aren't you tired from studying
body: hey arne't you tired --
me: ok ok

dog can i like go back and time and not spend all that money on food fantasy gacha

listening to the sounds of space while I'm 24+ hours into no sleep is something special

MY FRIEND SURPRISED ME WITH A CAELUS SKETCH omg

halier and azena are allianced bc ~marriage~ and the continent that hrist was a slave in got saved by the current king. He's like fr I dont have beef with them :V

Dethrones Astralin bc azena would truly be too powerful

That awkward feeling last night when people were complimenting me.... i still dont know how to react to it so its kind of just like haha thanks xd

:( I feel really cruddy. It was a fantastic night and day despite the stress but my body doesnt want to go to sleep and im on extra alert bc mental stuff

They're meant to look scarier than caelus but theyre both super nice 😅

Honestly im really glad the irises are really small.... they dont have that wide eye look like their sisters

Anyway everyone is having fun and im relaxing in the loft

Okay i got through the speech bcayse my uncle forced me to cry by mentioning my grandpa LMAO

BRO WHY AM I ALREADY CRYING DURING WEDDING PHOTOS LOOOL im cutting my speech down and avoiding all the sentimental parts because ima fucking lose it

Its probably because im heavily involved but still

Bro this wedding is already stressful as fuck

Im so glad that artists make them big

!!!!!

I did try though......

Tbh alexander will eventually use that mask

claps hands i love when i see a camille face

i haven't played a single video game for a month

i miss playing videogames :c it's crunch time with the wedding day + upcoming CNA test so it's just fucking busy for the next two-three months but

it'll be worth it and i'll get to see gabbie when i'm all done so i'm like REEEEEEEEEEE

I mean it from the bottom of my heart, just create for yourself first and then for the five people you keep captive in your basement.

alexander dying a little on the inside whenever he calls caelus by their name because it feels wrong

the alexander experience

me tryna write a stupid wedding speech for my sister and tearing up at each sentence

TRIES TO DESPERATELY SUCK UP MY TEARS BEFORE TOMORROW

im tryna take that shit in 2 weeks

okay. i need to reschedule my skills test cause i'm tryna like. take it next month.