Benny

holy crap RE:9 is so fuckin sweet, the VA for Grace is so incredibly top notch, seeing a character just drenched in anxiety and frequently having panic attacks is such a neat contrast to leons hardened idgaf playstyle

why must my inconviences be major ALWAYS IM GOING TO LOSE MY MIND

memories are so funny, like why are you just time capsuled in my mind when i think of random things or see certain stuff, im laughing!!!!!

god i love prisoners as a whole, such a good movie to send friends in blind into and just watch them be enamered by jake and hugh's performances

yea but do your dms look like this? 😏

dreamt i got a foot job and now i cant stop thinking about it who has their feet free 🔥💯

phone so dead reddit sends me notifications when i've had them turned off for years. happy valentines day

that superbowl performance has me in a trance man what the fuck

will you sit back and watch the cycle repeat once again? :)

heres a photo me and two of my sisters, its sweet enough i think

but even though I feel like a bit of a black sheep from my own parents who already were black sheep to our larger family as a whole, I am proud of who I've become and hope some day the larger Matheson family will see that too

its so interesting to watch my grandmothers funeral from home, seeing the family i feel so distanced from these days yet still feeling some pride in my family name. I never really thought much about taking my last name as my online alias

if anyone bothers to read this far please do reach out to your friends when you think of them, it has been pretty damning to watch the people in your life disappear the moment you leave their circle of routine.

my final grandparent passed last week which was more of a blow than i expected as I never really had a problem processing family grief up until this point, but with all of the other stuff that occured in december it really gave a bitter start to the new year

removing expectations has been so mentally freeing, i don't need to be anywhere to please anyone, i just do my own shit on my own time which if i dont think about it too much feels like independence rather than loneliness

pulled back alot on sharing my thoughts to this site over the last month, really went through it. my 80 hour stardew save was practically the only thing giving me routine and a want to stay alive which is really sad to reflect on but atleast its there

all i can say these days is ew lmao, nothing has been more freeing <3 wouldn't wanna be ya

till the room fuckin STINKS

haven't vaped in a week to prove to myself i could quit that, but i ain't built for all that shit so im getting back on my vices tomorrow

hit the full dog build W

right on punz party on

our very own kitchencel... 🥺

uh oh no game peaks my interest right now gulp

i'd stick up for myself if i could but everyone would rather walk on eggshells around her instead and "waiting it out" whilst my mental continues to dive. hopeless miserable and extremely disatisfied

a month into being blocked, she still opens every single message i post to react to it and bait a reaction out of me amongst our group of friends. just makes me sad inside at this point but everyone just sits around and is fine with it which makes me even more sad

;-; im sorry,,

raaaahhh i hate my perfect memory i want to forget things about people i don't want to remember everything about a person through music raaaahh

trouble focusing

i love guitar hero and smoking!!