batty

show me that a room in a miyazaki film is technically drawn like it's 12 feet wide in one shot and 16 feet in another. you know

im not talking "calvin's house is never drawn the same way twice in calvin and hobbes" im talking a work where they actually TRIED to make it consistent and it just never works that way because art is art and 2D drawings are fluid and that's what makes it good and interesting actually

what i need is an exhaustive powerpoint showing when and how BGs and spaces are drawn inconsistently in variously celebrated media how it doesn't fucking matter at all and no one is going to notice. i need someone to take a scalpel to every animated masterpiece to prove to me that it doesn't matter

There should be an Earth for people who don't hate all living things

no use in talking or wishing, i just have to figure out what i can do. nothing that'll move the needle much im sure but. eh.

no one fucking wants this

and it’s also nice from the other end. i don’t get the sense that my audience worries too much about what they’re “allowed” to say, feel, draw, write about my thing. we’re both secure in the knowledge that i get to make it and you get to feel things about it without anyone being punished.

i don’t personally run into this issue much because i think i’ve made my stance clear and i have a very respectful and intelligent audience for my comic. i understand that being very small time helps with that, and that’s a pretty nice thing about making something passionate but niche.

it’s important to be appreciative to those who support you and kind to everyone you can be kind to but i see that as different from, as artist, doing anything “for” your audience… i am doing it for me and letting you watch and i think most audiences actually like for an artist to do that!

bleak !

chobits and Evil Chobits (sorry i never read it)

chobits and Evil Chobits (sorry i never read it)

chobits and Evil Chobits (sorry i never read it)

chobits and Evil Chobits (sorry i never read it) (she doesn't look very evil in this one)

i think a good full time job for me would be if some mysterious entity paid me to draw chloe and clair like those classic CLAMP illustrations all day

when i think of the amount i'm able to do in HFHH in a single year for completely free, on my own, with no help from anyone, so that i can provide it, also for free, twice a week on average, it does make me wish more story-hungry people were willing to read as well as watch

i think the average person would be shocked to find out what the monetary and time expense is to create even 11 minutes of animation. episodes (expensive) are layered in a pipeline so you can do multiple at once—but that requires a full paid crew and each episode still takes ~a year to complete

it was even better this time

oops i accidentally read all of Kasane again

editorializing on my thumbnails lately

i’m also not willing to compromise my time at the expense of new comics so i have to find a way to do it alongside continuing my 100 updates a year streak. i’m trying to schedule for it, we’ll see how that pans out…

it’s something i’m vaguely planning for at this point. i would like to release the first 500 comics in two volumes. self marketing isn’t my natural strength though i would need to gather everything in my resolve to make a kickstarter lmao

seems like any time something is good, the ultimate compliment from well meaning fans is “this should get an indie pilot! i’d watch this as a show!” which, maybe i’m the odd one out in thinking it’d be more of a compliment to enjoy it as it currently exists, as good enough already.

animation is actually pretty limiting to get into because it is so expensive and time consuming to produce. if you care about an auteur vision (which not all works have to be ofc) animation doesn’t allow fully for that. and you have major time constraints on a story when you’re animating it too.

as someone who loves animation with all my heart, enough to pursue the borderline crazy choice of making it my career: i’m actually pretty sick of everyone always acting like the final form of any idea should be animation. sometimes a comic or prose or illustration series is already in its best form

there's barely money in this shit to begin with, trust me.

would be cool to be currently employed by the industry i still appear to be a part of.

fucking rent is fucking going up too much and im pissed off maybe ill try to blast through $900 worth of comms to cover the increase for the rest of the year so i won't be so pissed off. fuck it dammit man fuck damn it bro fuck

all i want is to live in enough peace to make art and for everyone else to live in enough peace to enjoy art

just gonna reimode with gauze + medical tape for awhile. it's a fashion statement. i can't help being a gainax girl

fucked up and gave myself an accidental gnarly steam burn right after midnight so great 1st bday present to me from me

i need to weed through my icloud shit and decide what is and isn't actually important to be on there and manage accordingly, but that goes under "actually thinking about it, so bored i'm comatose"

currently have a daily time machine backup to a local external + manual backups to the same external (when i remember to manually back up. every couple months or so) + both iCloud and local storage for main files. so im unlikely to lose anything. but iCloud is filling up &i dont wanna pay to upgrade

both i guess. the problem is that im deathly afraid of losing anything, but im so incredibly bored by thinking about the logistics of preventing it, that i just slap a bunch of precautions together and don't think about how it could be more streamlined/efficient