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Self improvement is overrated. There's no guarantee of a ROI or positive outcomes. People will project upon you their expectations of what your improvement means and God help you if you fall short

think part of it was I had coworkers I actually liked. I chose to go out there. I didn't make any new friends but I didn't try. I would leave eventually and they never leave Iowa

Less being told I did anything wrong but not telling me WHY it was wrong. I knew my scope. They were wrong. Fun times

It would be really nice if I felt like I had some control over my life. I'm losing weight, sure. But I've never felt "in control" of it. I play with variables a little until I find something that works and I stay exactly that way ad infinitum.

Funny how I felt more in Iowa. Not fully sure why, I

Two steps forward, five steps get removed at random and you're literally blind.

Hope your insurance carrier covered the seeing eye dog you requested cuz I can't see either

Sorry that was not my intention. Thank you for telling me directly and up front

For sure. Riley and I definitely know how that works.

But I'm far from the only person who can support her. I don't have a monopoly on that.

I do have a monopoly on sending her pictures of Cato. He has a special place in Riley's world so I try not to be too greedy with them

Riley is extremely good at letting you know if you do. She's amazing

Goddamnit.

I, for one, believe in you! We had to deal with exactly this back in the day and without guides and videos.

I'd play games with you but I don't know what we both have a copy of. My Switch collection is mostly single player games but I'll soon have this new video card running...

Y is no Pokopiaing?

Sorry, my bad. You talked to me too much today (but it was the most fun I've had in weeeeekkksss) and my time blindness infected you.

You have a lot on your plate suddenly. I won't pressure you into details but I've gathered enough to know it's a deep rabbit hole. I'll buy you so many r̶u̶g̶s̶ lizards

Huh. Not what I was expecting today. 4.1lbs in...one day.

My scale was reading 169lbs and while that was nice (nice) it wasn't physically possible. Turned out three batteries in it were at 1.15v which is <1.25v where stuff like scales freak out

Still, HOLY FUCK I'M <195Lbs AGAIN!!!

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Clearly he should do that more often

And with my friend's mom (both of which I care about deeply) probably having some kind of more serious cancer I really don't care if either of these job offers come back with something better.

They won't. But I'm paid rather well right now

After being VERY got direct and blunt with my boss and our boss about how I function they seem to actually get that my behavior makes sense...for me. They don't get it but they understand a lot more.

And I got to voice serious concerns over the language our casually company president uses

tired. And burnt out. And I had another autistic meltdown but it was fairly minor versus my last one (I'm deeply ashamed of that event and I struggle with it every day).

I don't know what to do. Especially with politics being what they are.

I want see my friend smile. It makes me stupid happy

Had my performance review yesterday. Not great. Not bad. I really don't care. I can't be given "special treatment" even if I am disabled unless HR is forced to through threat of lawsuit (ADA).

Those will help me a lot to get but my doctor seems to be dragging their feet for the paperwork.

I'm so

I'm second hand scared and stressed out and there's not much I can do about it right now except wait.

Definitely better than being stressed over my own shit rofl I can't fix any of that but other people? Fuck yeah we're gonna kick some ass, friend. Everything will be fine.

We will make it so.

You aren't alone, Riley. You have family there. Daddy is there. I'm still here. I know things are...what they are between us (I don't know how to approach the topic so I'm letting you do you and bring it up with me when you're ready).

I'm here for anything you need and I can help with. Anything.

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Yarp. :/

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No more guinea pig means no more cage and this spot feels monstrously empty now. So I'll setup my tools and a strong as fuck lamp and work out here I guess.

Need to put the HVAC panel back up. And clean this disaster. But eh

I've thought about this for a good two weeks....would it be ok if I sponsored one for a raffle?

You get dollars, it gets reposted like crazy, new followers come in, old followers renew you in their mind, etc, etc

And I get dopamine. Clearly the better end of the deal.

No is a cromulent answer.

Buy an icon!!!!

But also, hmm...

0.1lb lower, I'll take it. And once I've a lot to eat today sooo....

Can't wait for 195lbs. And then 190lbs. Somewhere between 169.9lbs and 190lbs I'll be able to find my 34" jeans. And then 32" ones will fit.

I can't wait to show my friends, most off them said nothing during my birthday-day?

GOOD NEWS! Researchers at Stanford University have developed a UNIVERSAL vaccine known as GLA-3M-052-LS+OVA, that protects against a wide range of respiratory viruses, bacteria AND even allergens. The vaccine is delivered intranasally AND provides broad protection in the lungs for several MONTHS.

You need this:

You should get a doctor visit punch card. Any visit to any medical office for any reason. Your choice of:

Free MRI
Unlimited uppies
New Wacom tablet
All the crayons
A blueberry bush where it's eternally perfectly ripe blueberries at maximum flavor

After having one big tiddy goth gf I guess one reason I don't care to really try dating is that I know I have a type and most women outside of that don't spark joy as quickly or easily as my type

Fellow disabled, Autistic and/or ADHD, etc I feel I'd trust and relate to which is not a big population