nicole ୨୧

hello i kinda need more moots on here but idk how 🥲

wish i could just go to london on a whim like literally everybody seems to be doing
also how have i never been there before 😭 sucks to be me 😔

hmm do i go to the showgirl screening tomorrow or not
i don't mind going to the cinema alone but it's kinda different this time somehow, idek why
i am just scared of feeling awkward again

how miserable must someones life be if all they do is complain online..
if i dislike something, i don't even bother mentioning it, because there's no point in doing so
i'd rather focus on the things i actually like and that spark joy for me

i actually really love wood, it's such a fun song and i am just vibing to it
but my current top 3 is opalite, the fate of ophelia and elizabeth taylor!

came back on here cause twitter is draining all my energy cause everyone is so negative about tloas like stfu 😭

yesss same but i am so sad we didn't get to see each other!! :(

i am so stupid, why did i waste so much time
i am almost 30 and the entirety of my 20s was completely wasted in every aspect i can think of
i just didn't think i could be SO dumb my god
and now i am about to lose another year i hate myself

i just have endless regrets in my life and i wish i could turn back time at least 10 years or even more cause i really wish i knew then what i know now 🥲

i just feel so lost and could cry, why am i like this
it's all so hard for me 😭 and i already lost 9 years in a job i hate helpppp

and idk if that's a risk i wanna take cause there's no guarantee i would get that job and i would most likely have to move too, cause it would be much more convenient
i wanna move anyways but still, i am just scared of a huge change like that when there's no guarantee for anything

currenly so unhappy again cause idk what i wanna do with my life, i am looking for jobs but i am scared of making a mistake and losing even more years and also scared of taking a risk cause what if it doesn't work out?? i found something i could see myself doing but i'd have to wait another year

need my 2017 energy back
when i was working full time and consistently uploading chapters of two stories to wattpad and also maintaining an instagram account where i would post a lot, especially teasers for those upcoming chapters and edits i made

to celebrate 19 years here are my top 2 from each album 🫶🏻

💚 our song & tomg
💛 ybwm & love story
💜 sparks fly & enchanted
❤️ red & atw10mv
🩵 style & yail
🖤 idsb & delicate
🩷 afterglow & cruel summer
🩶 august & mirrorball
🤎 tolerate it & champagne problems
💙 yoyok & maroon
🤍 icdiwabh & waolom

thankfully i was able to get my mind off of work, cause tate was just incredible and i loved every second of the concert 🥹 miss her already

the fact that i literally had to force myself to enjoy a concert cause my mental health's been so bad bc of work... that's not normal

i genuinely hate everything about my life, how do i get out of this hamster wheel
i am so tired

und wir mit dir erst 🤭🫶🏻

hahaha liebs 🫶🏻

you know what they say about hope

it breeds eternal misery

i hate getting my hopes up cause they always tend to get crushed
so i guess that's why i have learned not to expect anything anymore

when you wanna do the thing you wanna do more than anything but also can't bring yourself to do the thing...
i feel guilty and useless and i have been putting it off for months now, why am i like this

pure devastation is the thought of me not being in munich on saturday, guess i'll just be a wreck at home then

work killed me yesterday already but today i literally felt like the walking dead or smth
thank GOD i have two days off now, you better believe i will rot in bed for 12 hours at least lmao

hättet ihr mir vor so 13 jahren gesagt dass ich einmal gottlos wegen fußball heulen würde sodass mein ganzes gesicht fast schon angeschwollen ist hätte ich mich sofort erschossen cause wtf????
ich hatte mich nicht mehr im griff, es tat so weh in dem moment

am i back in my scrapbooking era? i finally did my speak now inspired page today after literal ages lol. let's see how long it will take me to finish this taylor album series 😂🫠

yess exactly and i feel like i missed so much that's why i need to know it all 😂 suzanne collins' mind just blows me away lmao 🥹

omg don't even get me started on the movie i am already so excited for it 🥹 but no seriously i am mostly stalking the thg subreddit to read other peoples discussions about anything and everything hahah

yeah same my obsession is back as well i can't stop thinking about everything hunger games related haha 🥺

i hate seeing people online who i have a lot in common with, cause i always so desperately wanna be friends with them but i never message them because of my huge fear of rejection 🫠 and that explains why i literally have close to no friends