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And then make ME feel guilty for something that’s not my fault

God forbid I blame my parents for at least some of my problems

18 more months and I’m out of here I will do whatever it takes even if it means I’m homeless every day I’m being pushed to my fucking limit

they care for me but not in the right way

I don’t understand why my parents care so much about me. I have no future

90 on my apes test I’m safe for now

God why is it so hard to survive and exist as a fucking human being I have no reason to feel this way

Back when I was hopelessly depressed, I was still mostly functional. I’m no longer depressed, but now I’m completely dysfunctional. I fear that I’m going to become depressed and dysfunctional, I’m never making it out of the trenches

I don’t remember what it’s like to function like a normal human being anymore

ok the like one thing that makes me feel better about turning in assignments late is that its better than turning it on time than using AI

is it bad if i wish i repped longer because i feel like im not really trans enough or didnt get the common experience and cant relate

I’ll never stand out like this

Can I actually be the person I want to be and am working towards

Same but then when it comes to the standardized testing some of the questions and answers sound weird so I just go off of what I think sounds right

i think its funny how my english classes never actually taught me any grammar they only ever placed emphasis on reading comprehension

I know my entire family is mentally ill and it’s why this household is toxic and dysfunctional I just can’t prove it

flashback to when i got told "you would make a great woman" in freshman year lol

my mom is like a ticking time bomb

nvm my eyelids are already heavy again i literally just woke up from a nap 2 hours ago brah

wait im actually being productive rn is this my meds or am i just goated? how long is this gonna last

i dont fuckinf care ill do anything to get out of here asap

im debating on finding a somewhat sustainable job moving out and transferring community college credits or something to nc state or something

HAHAHAHAH YEAH THATS LITERALLY ME 😭

I drool like crazy in my sleep so when i fall asleep in class it’s extra embarrassing

There are 3 boys in my entire art class including me

We haven’t seen 60s weather in like a month im so ready for warm weather again 🥹

Sweet Dysmorphia Transboy Goes to College; Charmingly uncensored.

dysmorph.livejournal.com this is genuinely so cool

Look at me my dad has adhd my mom has anxiety my sister is a narcissist my other sister is abused by her is it too much to ask for a family that loves me unconditionally and isnt dysfunctional

They’ll celebrate when they find my brains on the wall