nika shedtwt

being scared of the adult psyche ward makes me risk my life

i am scared of and for myself

i feel like i need saved im so scared

"i'm tired of hearing it all the time"

imagine living with it

i can't take it anymore

day after day

bruising

the wrist bruising didn't show up

went from 195 to 184 in two weeks

that's definitely not the half bagel i ate

yeah idk how yall get it up

how do yall purge i litterally cant get myself to throw up my food

i need to quit letting myself like people i go crazy

year ago today
fell into my dresser getting into the bathroom

ITS ALWAYS STARZY AHAHA I LOVE THEM

jesus christ

i hate how ugly and disgusting my skin is but i can't help but want to make it worse

never posted an update for those either

anyways here's that update

i disappear because i feel fine for like a week or two after then i spiral again

an AWESOME cycle right 😀

tehe at least you always remember me

it's funny how i just disappear for weeks at a time every time

im still going crazy dw

patch up

can't take it anymore

here's some small ones

i'm so sick

why does cutting instantly make me feel like everything's okay but that only lasts a week then i'm back to suffering

dude i had three goods on it the other day i was pissed

tehe we ballin together

shrinkage is annoying as fuck

all i feel like i own are shorts wtf

but god that shower made me feel sick cause of the pain

next day and after shower

the infected hair follicles is not it but i was not dealing with the blood all night so it was trapped under a tight gauze wrap

i'm bleeding through everything

another roll of gauze and self stick shit