kalifornication

the underlying fears of abandonment make it so hard to push back against abuse because you're afraid the abuser is the only person who will ever love you. and if you push the abuser away you will live for decades more without anyone who cares about you even a little. PLUS you will be the crazy ex

it is SO easy to lie to someone with bipolar or bpd because they are already taught to not trust their own instincts/intuition.

We're taught to doubt ourselves when we suspect someone is "plotting against us", doing things in bad faith, or simply outright lying. we're taught to fear our own anger

bipolar and bpd women are treated so incredibly poorly its because we're so abusable. most people mean that as a meme or kink phrase but im being dead serious. as a matter of intersectionality and as a product of having mental illness that makes it hard to discern the boundaries of reality: abusable

didn't draw too much last week but have a sword girlie
#nsfwart #oc #riotdrawsthings

Chiitan Car Wash Service

洗車サービス始めましたっ貴方の愛車をピッカピカっ☆

for @cottoncarolinekig.bsky.social !

Commission!
(check pinned post for Ko-fi)

we gotta get another whiteboard, it was always fun drawing stuff like tihs

Pretty girl 🌼

thumbnail sketch. they liiiiiike each other
#summer_westermarck #hart_bublis #siscon #yuricest #sisterxsister #yuri

preyification

Here's how to jump on a trampoline.

トランポリンの飛び方はこうですっ☆

I gotta draw more with colour, ughh
#art #eleanordarling

Can’t believe we are still doing this

I love all genders🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈
Because I have no gender.
Especially right now, transgender people are living with a lot of anxiety.

Why are transgender people not allowed to freely love the people they want to love?
Why can't transgender individuals live their lives with the soul they prefer?

also i dont read enough im just an obnoxious cunt and i like to spew absolute buckwild nonsense when im upset. idont even get drunk i just get mad

all of this is true but im just incoherently mad rn which is why im incoherent

i wish i was depressed again because it makes me so much more timid and dependent and lovable than these current anger issues. when im depressed its "wahh im sooo sad im so useless I need your help for everything" but currently its like I Will Destroy Everything In This World By Myself Including You

i am in a baaaaaaaaad mood

i hate this website. let me say more words. let me explain myself. let me fully flesh out my thought. this is the dawn of shortform stupidity. they'd have more space to store words if they got rid of the videos they just added

i was never in want of food, water, shelter, clothes, money or Stuff(toys, games). my peers lacked those things often. i am the rich you eat. doctors and lawyers and what have you daily drift farther from the average joe in income and lifestyle. class polarization. rich get richer poor get poorer.

i have said that i never want children and if i have a child it will be a sure sign that ive been raped and held prisoner. doctors STILL want me to have kids. they WANT me to be raped and held prisoner. it makes me so incredibly angry that i have nobody in my corner at all. i am truly in this alone.

eat the rich does in fact mean me. im tired of everyone saying "doctors arent The Rich they contribute to society" "lawyers arent The Rich they contribute to society" they are rich because they have exorbitant amounts of money. ridiculous amounts of money. and their kids benefit from that.

i am so frustrated and any time i try to talk about it people call me a cynical misanthrope. "have some more hope" they say "have some more trust. have some more faith. be more positive." i am interested in the truth

medical school debt is so bad that doctors have to become assholes in order to get the money to live debt free. SUPPOSEDLY. frankly i think my mother HAS paid off her medical school debts and she's just a cunt who wants to go to disney on money she earned by fucking people over

dealing with medical professionals at all is puke inducing for me because i KNOW they know what they're doing because they went to school for YEARS for this but at the same time they're too LAZY and GREEDY to apply their INCREDIBLY EXTENSIVE knowledge to actually HELP people. money driven system :(

i mean, like, jab it further in than its supposed to go. also i get crazy paranoid delusions so i KNOW having a Device in in my body is a poor idea. the idea is triggering even right now and im in a fairly good place mentally. so if i got really scared i'd prolly try to rip it out myself. bad juju