Zadkiel 🪽

I like this guy

Learning how to draw cats !!!!

Invalid handle?? :(

Like should I not do that

Am I trauma dumping for just passively complaining about losing time

I dunno. Can I not bitch and moan without people wishing they were me because they see the timeskipping and alters of DID and romanticize it.

Sorry but I should be allowed to complain passively about losing time the same way other people can complain about feeling anxious or some other mental health symptom. Just because timeloss is scary and complicated does not mean I do not just passively deal with it the same as anxiety.

My singlet fiance and my singlet friends will be spared when I wage war. The rest of you batten down the hatches

Got hit with an "lol" for briefly mentioning my timeloss in a discord server. Singlets when I fucking get you

My period being 6 days long is foul. I am a 4 day period princess and you will respect me as such, uterus.

Dissociative disorders are stupid. Blinked and 4 hours are gone but I am fronting so where did the time go

Just learned tigers are not girl lions.

Happiness is never cringe

Someone send me $15 so I can buy Balatro on Switch please

$lukemoment

If you fail to do this you might want to check your internalized lesbophobia

Jimbo from Balatro could be a beautiful lesbian.

I love Dom so dearly . I hope it knows how much I love it

Fingers crossed no nightmares.

You will dream about wheat. I decided it

My brain deciding if I get no dreams or That One Dream

Something something maybe nothing was as bad as it seems. Maybe She is nicer than I think she is. What if I just made it all up.

Apparently She called the other week and Will stayed on the phone with her for a while.

We got a letter from Her the other day that Will saw no issue with. And realistically yeah no there was no issue with it. But the fact of the matter is Will was supposed to be putting distance between us and Her, and now here we are.

This fucking sucks, Will

Interact if read

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I am fine I am just on a low dose of my medication and having a lot of small but persistent and cumulative flashback type episodes.

outward? But I want the comfort. I want to be able to hide myself. I want to be able to hold Dom and shield both of us away from the world. I want to feel safe in my own mind.

Maybe it is some sort of seasonal thing. Maybe I am just getting worse. Maybe it is because fall/winter is a very traumaversary-laden time for me. Who knows. Not me

I just want my wings. I try to focus on how they feel in my mind when I need to calm down, and I try to almost project that feeling

It sucks. It is so bad. We were abused so bad it is not even funny. I try to stay silly but there is really nothing silly about what happened to me and the reality of it all keeps hitting me in waves. And for a while the waves were months apart. But lately it feels like weeks apart. days at worst.

I know this is my job. I know I split to do this. But it is not fair. I do not have anyone to hide my memories from me. I do not have the luxury of living in ignorance of what happened to me. I forget some of it, but I remember most of it. Even what I did not experience.