Trash Mammal! 🪴🕹️🦕

digital painting of dimly lit room, with a figure crouched behind the computer desk in the corner, working in graphic redactor. there is also a parakeet on the headrest :)

sludge of the passing dawns

Hab Inglourious Basterds mit Papa geguckt, jetzt ist das Gleichgewicht erst mal wieder hergestellt 😌

a fake Gameboy Color screenshot of the three new gen 10 Pokemon starters Browt, Pombon and Gecqua.

Am I too late to the "draw the starters" party?
Tried to make them look extra "gen 1" ✨
#pokemon #pixelart

Ich kann das alles nicht mehr.

the war is unpopular but it's also illegal but it also doesn't serve any purpose but it also undermines diplomacy but it also is set to produce the opposite outcome as intended but it also already has hundreds dead and threatens more but it also will not make anything better for anyone but it also

We hate kids. Like SO MUCH. We vote for the guns. We vote for the bombs. We protect the rapists. We have LEOs physically restraining parents from trying to save their children in Uvalde. We just blew up a school in Iran. We love Jeffrey Epstein and his friends. They run the country.

I hated myself the first 27 years of my life and my dad made me feel that feeling again after I tried so hard to bury it the last few years.

Sometimes I wish my family would have just given me up for adoption or something. All I ever wanted was a family who loves me without connecting it to any expectations I'm unable to fulfill. If I can't get that I would rather live without a family at all.

Why it always results in massive insomnia when I have to deal with such emotional baggage? 😔

Fear of getting the bad dreams where I'm left alone by everyone I trust maybe ...

my dad needs me too, I kinda swore to him to always get his back because he basically saved me from my abusive mother .... without my dad idk where I'd be today, probably dead and I just love him so much and feel so responsible for him >_< he has so much to deal with rn and I don't want to loose him

I can't deal with my family breaking up another time, the first time traumatized me badly and in all my nightmares I still have I'm always left alone by everyone, that's basically my biggest fear.

and the way I got traumatized as a child makes me feel like I'm the one who's to blame :(

The first talk with my dad ... well, it happened and I learned that my little brother won't accept me no matter what ... I felt so guilty for a lot of things in my life like the divorce of my parents and now I feel guilty for being trans and asking vor acceptance. Idk how to deal with this.

Lilac Ebb Tide
Acrylic on framed box board
Now at
www.fionadane.com/gallery

Cavs fucking a tree surely wasn't on my bingo card for 2026 😂

damn, cavs mullet looks really gorgeous in the new vid 😵‍💫

Wanted to buy this shirt when I got the money for it and now I do but it got sold *sad possum noises* 😔

Dominic the grey cockatiel standing up straight looking very dignified

A dignified litttle dinosaur

is life just a series of days where you're tired in the afternoon and wide awake at night, running behind on weekly deadlines, and seeing pants get slim and big and then slim again over the years until you die?

YouTube video by CAVS CAVS - Candiru (Official Music Video)

The new Cavs song is amazing. The video (directed by Hayden Somerville, who recently did Grow Wings and Fly) is wild. Check it out if you haven't.

He visits me this weekend. Only us two, not his wife or my brothers and it's the first time after my coming out. I hope we can finally talk about everything and that he still supports me even though he had a vastly different upbringing.

Sadly I've already lost contact to my mother who doesn't even know I'm trans and I always had a good relationship with my dad, he supported me during everything in my life ... and now suddenly I'm asking too much when I just want to be accepted as I am :(

I hope my dad has the same feelings for me and isn't just selfish.

I don't try to even talk about the things that aren't easier for me now bc he takes this stuff and tries to talk me out of it or makes me feel bad for transitioning. I only talk about the good things now and keep the rest for myself

And I thought I would connect even better with my dad because I wasn't even happy as a girl in the first place and we could do more "dad and son" stuff while also talking about feelings and such as we always did ... But somehow it got worse even when I'm telling him that nothing between us changed.

My mother surely doesn't love me and about my dad I'm sadly not sure ... The word "family" has a different meaning in my reality.

I think I might just ignore it in the future and just cope with it myself. I don't want to be a burden for everyone.

I feel horrible today.

Even my best friend doesn't deserve this title and I'm just alone on this fucking world.

Nope, my mum abused me mentally and physically during my childhood and my teenage years and I cut contact with her some years ago, she doesn't even know I'm trans.

My dad is generally supportive but he seem to have a harder time then thought and idk how to deal with it ...

How do you deal with it? Do you correct her or just ignore it?

I told my dad that he didn't lost anything, just got a child now that isn't depressed all the time and won't kill himself someday but idk, my gender seems more important than me being alive.

All of my friends don't have any issues with gendering me correctly and most of them I know for 10-15 years ... I get it that it might be harder for parents but I deserve some dignity as well. I just want to be accepted as I am, I'm so fed up with fitting into everyone's picture of me.

Got misgendered by my dad again and I corrected him too harshly he said but I legally changed my goddamn name and gender, I after 2 years I can at least ask him to at least show me some love and try to get it right ... I hate correcting others anyways and still I'm wondering if I'm asking too much 😔