meg's ranting account

I need to just quit stalling and actually kill myself at this point because my life is going nowhere and my entire existence is a massive waste of everyone's time. Not a single thing about me has ever mattered and everyone is just too nice to be honest with me

I know everyone is sick and tired of me. I know I'm not adding anything to anyone's life and I know it's selfish to want to feel like I am and I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong

Crying so hard I can barely breathe and I just want to stop feeling like this

Life feels so incredibly pointless rn

Depression is hitting me so hard today, I can't even make myself eat

I should never have wasted so much time on writing

Urrrgghrhehrhrehrh god i want to die SO bad

And it's not even my period or luteal phase. This fucking sucks THIS FUCKING SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!

It really sucks having terrible suicidal ideation all the time and also being around a lot of people who don't really make any effort to be around you with any degree of urgency. I feel so taken for granted by so many people, it sucks so much

I can't think about the state of the world for even one second without being like "so why don't I just kill myself"

I just can't feel anything but despair anymore. The planet is collapsing, there's nothing that can help ease any of the mountains of pain i feel every single day, I don't get to do things I enjoy nearly enough to make life feel worth it, and I just want an out, I just want to die

When someone gives single word replies the the book stuff i share it feels worse than if they said nothing at all 🥴 bro I am trying to share this and I put a lot of thought into it, pls at least TRY to engage

I'm so tired of the despair. Just constantly feeling like I'm not worth it, nothing is worth it. Being told to try harder when I'm giving everything I have. It's so beyond frustrating