Veronica Carey Matthews

Tonight was a very bad night.

I met a fan after my show with a DJ in Brazil who said that she would love to see me perform with a band. I told her if she was ever in an American city that I was in with my band, I would put her on the list. She said no thank you. She explained that she is scared to come to America because of ICE.

Yes the normal, the abnormal…none of what’s going on is good except for those in the circle.

We’re all going to be harmed, and all we can do is try to avoid it

Thank you. I don’t want to see people be harmed but I just think that we’ve been overcome by fear that has us making decisions that, if you’re in a position of power, makes you less inclined to help not in those positions…and I don’t know what to do to alleviate the American virus that’s befallen us

Thank you for your response. I try, but it seems like the world has been demonized moreso than ever (there’s always been a fair degree of it) as well as my own personal turmoil and the combination of it is…staggering. But again: God Bless and thank you for following along 💜

And doing this (perhaps inspired by lyricists I grew up with like Tupac and Eminem) is better than...whatever other alternative there is out there

If you read to this point...I don't know what resonated with you, but we must have a kinship somehow, so thank you for your diligence and God bless

I don't know what my point is in all this, I'm kind of assuming no one will read this or, if they do, scroll past it

I'm just....I'm at a point where I can keep it all together if things go ok

But if I get triggered into some sort of, I don't know, dysphoric state...I start to spiral

And while saying all this...financially, I'm doing better than I have in years (thanks to some inheritance from these deaths in my life)

So, for many I'd say life would improve significantly if finances improve but for me...the only word I can think of despite these monetary gains is "sorrow"

I'm on the precipice of turning 40 (about 40ish days from now) and I've been transitioning for over 5 years now & I feel like I'm going backwards, I've been misgendered more recently than in previous times, and I just want to assume the fetal position & stay there indefinitely until whatever comes

It doesn't help that my personal life has been traumatic for the last couple years: mom suddenly passing away, grandma dying, brother dying, car accident, LA fires/raids...and then writing a play that was my magnus opum, that ended up being possibly more traumatic than any of those other events

I have no faith that anything in this world is fixable.

That doesn't mean there aren't a tremendous amount of people who are doing good on a daily basis, because they are and that's amazing.

But it's not enough. Absolute power corrupts absolutely, and we've reached the tipping point of that maxim

This isn't just about the state of our country, and where we're heading...although that, alone, is reason enough to be lost in angst.

I'm trans. I'm older. I've tried to leave, but I have no realistic escape. Canada won't take me. I don't have any links to other countries.

I don't know where to go

I haven't posted in awhile...haven't really been on in a while.

I just...I don't have hope. I've lost it. I really tried for a long time to hold on but it's not there.

You latch on to what you can...Epstein files, evidence of voter fraud...doesn't matter.

Nothing changes.

Call me when it changes

I reposted this because it tickled my fancy a little, but also to see if I could do a re-post, and then go back and try to add something (like a pithy rejoinder of some sorts) and make it a quote post...not seeing how I could do this...?

A very accurate description of Montreal

Haven't posted in a while...haven't felt like it

My mental state is either "Maybe the courts will uphold things enough through the next election" or "Let it get worse so I can prove I need refuge"

But I'm in the final round of auditions to be in the Jeopardy! contestant pool again so that's cool!

A beautiful corollary to “it’s not the destination, it’s the journey”

I spent the last month being a performer in a project where, in this "fictitious" future dystopia, art has been banned and the mention of the word elicits the henchmen of the "Leader" to come "stomp" and "boot" us. It was intense enough where at some point a patron had to leave momentarily.

AMA...?

I like to post here when I have something I want to say/vent/express because despite having 3k+ followers I don’t think many people see my posts and thus less consequences.

Eg…if someone takes a picture of me and I end up seeing it there is a 100% chance I’ll be depressed for the rest of the day

Someone who I have a...very complicated relationship with, missed a couple times trying to see my show, and I'm trying to mentally argue with him and I think "You don't have the cards..."

Uhh...why does this now have to be usurped by 45? Wish I could just...say that, without that context. You know?

More info in pinned post

2nd show of "The Meeting" yesterday

Yes our immersive show THE MEETING where we live in a world where "art" has been banned & so we have a "meeting" allowing people (at times) to express their feelings on how the world is going

People hadn't shared much until yesterday (No Kings Day)...people did

Damaged people

They look for damaged people that have gained enough privilege that they can focus their damage into that one area of expertise of policy and become a minion of a truly damaged person.

Then the truly damaged person enacts laws to have the minions (& minions of minions) damage people

It brings me no joy to stan an LA Kings fan but this is important.

Does anyone have any info on why Waymo was utilized the way they were during the weekend events (ie being summoned and then set on fire)? Are they LAPD-backed? Or does it just have to do with them being self-driving cars?

God dammit.

I don't what to say besides...

I fucking love LA

I posted last night about being in a show where we live in an authoritarian regime and can't perform art or even say words like "perform" or "art".

Today I find about the raids in LA.

That's what this show is about...this is happening now, people taken away for nothing.

Go fight the good fight

Keep standing up Los Angeles. You are leading the way by example. We need to oppose fascism with every fiber of our being.

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We had our opening of our show last night...it was amazing.

I've been a part of dozens of productions, many of them fantastic...but this might be the best work of art that I've been a part of.

If you're in LA in the month of June, I highly recommend coming out.

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