rumble, the mechanized menace

was i really feeling better or was i just closing everything off by work? do i need to feel bad to feel inspired to create? it feels like the whole world is falling apart and im just going to school again. what do i even want in the future?... what do i want now? do i really just do everything for attention? what's something only i can do? who should i become?

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will i die tonight, oh no, is it over?
looking for my next high? im looking for closure

i know im not right, but im not wrong
no im not wrong

falling for the oceantears propaganda i see (its working on me too)

i was introduced by a friend but dude everyone should listen to Peach Pit, genuinely has become one of my absolute favorite bands of all time. "Magpie" is such a pretty album and "You and Your Friends" has some real nice bangers, "Psychics in LA" is absolutely my fav song though, everyone listen!!

always love both the doodles and the alt text

alt text is very well said, i feel that a lot too. you never know what the right option is, and being a perfectionist is hard i know well, but if you never take any steps you will never move forward.

incredible stuff as always, keep up the good work

good day today, bringing out my good mood song

YouTube video by DioGoesBrando Great Days Units Ver. (HQ)

www.youtube.com/watch?v=_WJ9...

#teemo and #ziggs but they're these weird blobs because I got artblock

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looks at my wallet, grins

this took 2 hours to do which is honestly way quicker and easier than how i normally draw things. i didnt really gaf about little things and just painted the colors pretty much (its really apparent in his cloak). honestly it gives it a nice gradation of colors instead of just filling the colors in and relying on shading afterwards. its a scary world out there, and looking at it from a big picture standpoint, things are so hard. ive been trying to take things day by day, and really try to find happiness and pleasure in the little things. I want to be unapologetic in what i like and who i am. earlier, designing my ocs is hard because i didnt really know my identity, so how am i to write someone else? but i realize that the self isnt really a static thing, and it changes based on how i live my life and the decisions i make. That being said, I still dont know what makes me, me. if its just a clinging to some vague sense of good morals and self-improvement, i dont really know if thats enough? whatever. staying true to how i feel and being honest will bring me closer to that truth. that aside, i also do think theres a fear that comes along with me no matter what i do, and its the fear of uncertainty. am i going the right way? am i making the right decisions? am i doing it right? at first i think it was only that i was afraid of research--in a class, there are right and wrong answers, but in research, nobody knows whats right! cuz its new! and thats scary! i realize that... its not just from research. if i want to become someone i respect, someone that i can be proud of, i need to be able to let go of the past and embrace the future. i need to find what really matters to me and do that! i cant change how others treat me, but i can change how i react to them. i said this actually like a year ago, but i couldnt really accept it. ill show you my cards, and if my hand isnt enough for you, then thats alright! ill play my own game.

trying out procreate. someone battle boosted in aram today and i actually didnt know what im missing out on this skin its so peak cuz it has like two spammable emotes! still not buying it though

delivering peak as always

you are and will forever be one of my favorite artists i hope u know this

doodles of the yordles Veigar and Teemo from the game league of legends. Veigar is holding his hands up while laughing maniacally, showing his sharp fangs. Teemo is smiling in a friendly yet calm way while having his arms crossed

I wanted to practice drawing yordles (from League of Legends) due to an art collab I want to work on soon, I have drawn a bunch of these guys before I returned to the Sonic fandom but I have to admit these guys require a lot more detail!

#veigar #teemo #LoL #leagueoflegends #yordles #leagueartist

it kind of feels like ive been living a double life? like the stuff i do on here and playing games and the like is so divorced from anything i do irl. also i just dont talk about it to people irl. Even when playing games with irls i dont talk about art or ocs or anything. ive spent so much time just doing things online it feels like thats just how things are. as im going thru school, ive had less time for everything, so ive had to actively choose what im doing, and my art has taken some of that. is this what "growing up" means? was i supposed to do this a decade ago? i dont think theres anything wrong with holding onto these things, but rather i need to be a bit more deliberate with them i guess. some of the friends ive made also did art too, but theyre really good at realism and i mean like really really good. so im thinking maybe if i did that i would have something better to show. (what's wrong with my current improvement? why is it hard for me to show my ocs? [id actually be fine with showing the cirrus ref i like that] i dont think there's anything wrong with cartoony/stylized art. its just not as... socially acceptable? idk. am i not proud of myself? what matters to me? making something that someone else'd put in a gallery or what id like to put on my wall? or just having fun?) all that just to say. i hope i dont drift away too far...

stuff in my room + aspect

welcome to the new era

I was challenged by @x-stone.bsky.social to redesign Corki. I accepted.

Now here's the Daring Bombardier in a fluffier form, but still as lethal as ever!!!

#leagueoflegends #yordle #fanart

He stares.. #teemo

im starting school in a new area and ill have no friends there so please forgive me. im afraid and anxious and unhappy because i didn't take that step in college (and covid happened but thats just an excuse), and now im afraid that will happen again. anyways. i went on twitter the other day because my friend sent me a post and i almost threw up. not cuz the site's a mess, but because i was jealous. it seemed like nothing actually changed when i stopped posting. was i ever anyone? everyone was having a great time, wonderful new art, and obviously the interactions were sky high. i feel like ive lost my community, or maybe theyve moved on from me. honestly its for the best because i should be spending my time studying but like. it just makes me feel like did i ever matter? do i have to make a post like this for you to even talk to me? i volunteer my time and try my best to make you feel better and im needed then, but when everything's fine, im not even an afterthought. like who am i to you? seems like everyone just has someone better to talk to. im sure im just overreacting, and everyones been busy over these past three weeks. but its like. what am i supposed to do? i feel like ive tried everything, yet we are no closer than when we first said hi. maybe we were once, but not anymore, and i dont know what happened in between. i guess people are just changing without me and leaving me behind. maybe everything's fine and everyone loves me? just really feels bad when im not getting that validation. maybe i was fine like this before and its just now that i have to move my thresholds are lower. i dont know. im sad.

u can see me progressively warm up as i go hahaha

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what the fuck

It's hard to find motivation for anything, I do nothing yet am always tired, I rely too much on other people that when I'm alone I'm miserable yet the past while all I've been is alone for 95% of my day. I need a break so bad yet that won't help anything. It's exhausting.

It's progressively getting harder and harder to even get out of bed anymore.. it's at a point a single bad thing can set me back to my 2020 depression where all I did was bedrot so bad it horribly affected my health

stayin still, eyes closed, let the world just pass me by..

If you're reading this, then take it. (✿◡‿◡)

#fanart #art #leagueoflegends #yordle

kris blushing as the knife was questioned still makes me giggle
fantastic drawings as always...

im really happy we're friends :]

beautiful drawings and beautiful alt text