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Sometimes things happen and I end up taking off my CPAP in the middle of the night which then causes me to wake up the next morning exhausted and foggy. Yesterday was one of those mornings. 10 really loud layers

Turns out I've been suppressing emotions for a long time. Just changed to a more trauma-focused therapy and I'm also going to start processing things through creative stuff more.

I did this two days ago on my phone. 18 layers (which is a new record for me with any visual project)

My Google Maps timeline data was affected thanks to that "technical issue." I just barely discovered it a few weeks ago, saw fun reminders of things from over the past 10 ish years, and now everything before March 7th (two weeks ago) is just gone.

POW is one of the biggest things I miss about not going to GDC in several years. Glad to see it still going especially in such turbulent times.

Short-ish update: mental health is up and down but things are still generally getting better (even in the face of this global 💩-show. Amazing what ND-informed therapy can do.

Got some tedious matters to attend to over the next month or so and then I should 🤞hopefully🤞 be able to create again.

In the interest of trying to re-unleash my creativity back into my life, I've started doodling again (even on my daily schedules). The Dark Matter boss music from Kirby 64 got stuck in my head so I started listening to it and decided to do a quick doodle of Dark Matter. 🎲👁

And ironically my inability to make a decision about what else to share from this article means this is the end of the thread so go read it yourself lol

So this bit is interesting. I tend to think of making routines as something that I just can't do and yet I have very regular routines I do no problem. I think I keep running into routine crafting assuming they are hot decisions when in reality the "coldness" of the decision is what is tripping me up

This makes so much damn sense. I hate it and love it so much haha

Decision Fatigue in ADHD People with ADHD often experience decision fatigue after making thousands of small decisions every day. Learn more about how decision fatigue affects those with ADHD and how to cope.

Bingo. This article speaks to me and makes so much sense. www.verywellmind.com/decision-fat...

Also if you are following me please know that I do not plan to follow very many people. I'll still browse through people's posts from time to time straight from their profile but if you wanna make sure I see something, tag me.

It explains a lot about how difficult day to day living can be for me. It also indicates I gotta tweak how I tackle just doing shit in general. This could partially explain lots of times I freeze up with job stuff, interpersonal socialization, and even hobbies. I'll keep ya posted on this.

Big personal discovery today from a new experience for me (or at least the first time I've been consciously aware of it): decision making uses a LOT of my mental energy. I knew before that most executive functioning is more difficult thanks to my neurospicy brain but this? Like damn

made my account. major brain fog today. this is all you get for now lol