AltoGrizzly

Each stress response forces me to take more alprazolam because I have lost so much and have been labeled a false victim, suffering immense oppression.

Living a life where malice is everywhere is not easy.
Especially when the people you close gradually become indifferent...

I can't seem to stop this pointless internal friction.
I always long to return to the past, but the reality is I have to be constantly vigilant because I never know which person hurt me might reappear
and trigger my stress response.
You can never be sure they let things escalate.

I want to apologize to everyone these past few days. My impulsive actions have hurt many people and caused chaos in the community.

I just want to tell everyone that I'm very sorry.

And I'll deleted many posts.

Because I know there are still people who need my help.

Double Bears💚🤎
🐻: @conradhusky.bsky.social

I don't need to change myself to be liked by others. I know I'll be replaced one day.
maybe a sense of belonging is a luxury to me.

I just have to choose to accept everything with my wounds. At least I can better understand other people's feelings and pain.

Light and Dark side.

thank for some Ndarkfox group.
I was kicked out that day just for playing well in the game.
Because I play this game frequently, it is easy for me to judge the enemy's position.
But now, a week later, it still affects my gaming mood.

I trusted you until you betrayed me. and now You are not my panda friend. You continue to be a playboy.
I don't want to hurt anyone, but these are the choices you make......

You used to be my favorite friend. when your friend changed make you feel sad, I with you try to help you. last year you start close more looking good peoples, Even do ERP next to me. I still didn't say anything.
Until you blocked and kicked me out.
You stepped on my bottom line.

I know that sometimes what I do is wrong, but I cannot accept enduring unreasonable grievances again, like thay Banning or kicking without justifiable reasons.
I don't want to swallow my anger for this. everything is true. There is no need for me to lie because it is meaningless.

Just like those who once said they like me, then abandoned me and blocked me.
I don't want say this, but it really Disgusting.
I used to think we were close friends..........

You little F shit
You used to be my favorite panda.
Until last year, you were doing ERP with someone else next to me and then gradually got close to other people.
And more more more more.
Today I also know that you blocked me.
And kicked me out when I was just visiting a friend.

Completion status and test time

The test version becomes the new style.

@maropl.bsky.social
thank for Complete equipment testing and program.❤️

@foemy.bsky.social
thank for Complete this new avatar.💙

@namekotuki.bsky.social [Wolf's Warehouse]
thank for installation suggestions,
and this two great weapon habakiri and amazuchi.💚

Thank you for giving me such a special sense of belonging during that time. It also gave me a purpose to build my own PC. I miss you....
This memory is really painful.

It's a dream again.
3 years ago, meeting and communicating with you was joyful. You always wanted me to join your group, Even took me into VR.
You were one of the few people I was close. Until everything happened the next year. I can't forget this all.
But hope you're doing well.

Sometimes, when I see close friends seeming distant,
and try to get closer to those who seem more special....
my mind like tall me: "Maybe I'm still not good enough...Not good enough..." Those familiar pain creeps back in. But I keep saying, "I'm okay it's fine",

About 4 years ago
There were some designs that have not been carried out until now.
they are a kind of Cyborg style
Hopefully next year I'll have the chance to successfully make them into fursuits

I woke up from a nightmare of fear, so scared.
in my dream I saw two unidentified blue lights flashing
I know that light is not hope, it's more terrible destruction.
The whole city is filled with an atmosphere of despair.

I don't know what terrible things will happen in future.

can see more farces from the perspective of the perpetrator. Is it fun?

"Emergency Isolation"
I originally thought that I would be safe without the people had bullied me joining.
Until "M"TheCanine, once caused me to be banned by ten people, joined
At least this time I left before losing control of my mind
my dark:"FK OFF WHY THAT BITCH STILL JOINED"

Maybe not everyone can understand what I feel and what I carry.
But at least I can understand and try to help everyone.
Maybe that's why I am a bear. I always stay true to myself. and always be kind.
never like those oppressors tempted by fame or fortune.

Memories stored in crystals.
i know I am a goober, but I just want to see smile.
I've experienced a lot of things and lost. it also makes me can understand everyone's feelings.
Even if I'm hated, excluded, or have rumors spread about me.

I'm still surrounded by everyone's loves.

Another new week...
For over a month, I've been going back and forth between medication and sleep. I know my mental state has affected my body, and I no longer have the energy to move.
I wish I could be as normal as everyone else, or even better. I don't know...

for my Favorites
@thatdogcoda.bsky.social

Thank you for always giving me warmth when I am down
and... yes i'm always your good boy🧡

2014

2015

2020

2024

2014 to now
I think I've changed a lot,
But I also often remind myself not to lose myself
I just want to be myself

I'm just here to ease the pain of the past few days. Maybe I'm not cut out for playing games with you guys.
Just like when I was a kid, no one wanted to play with me.

it's fine.