Ghost

Single mom era i guess.

"I'll be home by 2" yeah i wont hold my breath. Shouldve come home when i became unresponsive in the bathroom by myself.

I keep having these scary ass low blood sugar episodes not often but i had 2 back to back today and i did not think i was going to make it out without passing out on the bathroom floor.

I miss feeling loved. 😕

You can actually tell how exhausted and run down life has made me... theres a reason i have been avoiding photos :(

How are you even supposed to stop dissociating when its a person constantly triggering you like. Idk i cant out the person for being that way but grounding only goes so far when youre always being yelled at.

Its exhausting getting told your not autistic then getting in trouble for autistic traits like wtf

When you look up gaslighting bc youre being accused of doing it only to findnperhaps you are actually the one being gaslit.

I... need a nose job... bc wtf? Why does it look like that 😭

Wnnoying that facebook just keeps offering a wellness check. I just want to change my password and deactivate like just fucking let me do that.

It feels like everyone in the world is gaslighting me to believe im codependent when im just anxious people are dead and like to fucking text when i wake up like. Cant even say fucking i miss you with out there being secret code in there for co.e home. Like. Idk im at a loss.

Or our relationship becomes in jepordy and then i get told im fucking vaing for effection and cant stand anything ljke i just want to know where youre at.

Its crazy to constantly be called codependent when you are literally just asking for a text before 6 am while youre out all night that youll be out all night instead of me having to just make assumptions. Its crazy that you want to be out all night but i cant even text you at all

Also tired of the constant diminishing of my writing like yeah ive taken about a 7 month break,but like im pregnant chill out ill get back to it when im ready.

Fleeting art is sometimes the most theraputic. Like if it ends up looking like shit ill just try again later. Theres not pressure in the perfect look as long as youre happy with the outcome. Like idk.

Some men will just never understnad doing make up literally for fun. Like yeah im gonna wash it off later but the fun part is it always gets to be different. Idk no one else has to like it but me im not doing it to be "more attractive" im having fun mixing colors and changing how i look for a moment

I could cry the bat warmie is sold out again. Please tell me theyre going to restock it while i have money 😭😭😭 im desperate i need one so bad it would cure my insomnia.

I was meant to frolic in the forest, live in a cottage where someone takes care of me and i just do whimsical shit all day.

Be doing the shit yoy want from me.

Bc they just read into it when what im saying has no more meaning then what i said verbatim. Like yeah you can hold me to allistic standards but im never going to meet them. Idk allistics think i sound snotty. Like idk i dont want to be interacting as deeply as yall want me to. I dont want to

Tell me wtf im saying thats upsetting you bc i think im holding normal ass conversations. Its so weird that someone whos diagnosed autistic would be like well i can read the signs like you mean you can make shit up bc im not meaning any of that. I cant say nothing

I find it so annoying that like if im saying i dont know what im doing thats causing offence someone would then say so its my job to educated you. Like i mean no but if you want me to quit being offensive you probably should. Like if what im saying is hurting your feelings yeah youre gonna have to+

Some ppl will never understand what it means to have a mental disability that is actually disabling qnd not just an inconvenience.

all,these last minute changes in the last 24 hours is going to have me pulling my hair out soon. i like cant keep up. i need to sleep. cant sleep alone. cant have quality sleep even if not alone. cant barely drive anywhere. idk im going to fall apart

The report was like "doesnt have severe dissociation" but not only do i not remember this person but forgot a whole ass diagnosis? Like is that normal adhd memory issues or like? Is that semicrazy i forgot.

Yall i know i say my memory is horrendous but how did i forgot i was diganosised with autism in 2023? I? What?

Feeling evil wanting to comment "do better this time"

Not my raads-r score being 190.

Im begging people who have fashion brands to make a couple maternity options. You dont have to go crazy but like im tired of being so outside my aesthetic just bc im pregnant 😭 i still want to look cool.

Brown eye haters dni. I told my hairdresser i hoped my son would have his dads brown eyes and she was like "youre the first person ive ever heard say they love brown eyes" brown eyes are forever superior to me.