venge

LIFE HAS BEEN GOOD

i dont want anybody else but them

i literally suck at math, i dont even fucking know how coins work, im really weak, and im awkward. i'll never make it out in life when im like this, and ive been told that multiple times before already by different people, including family members.

especially a specific one. but either way i feel like people would care about me more if i was dead, i dont plan to kill myself any soon since well LOL im reaalllyyy young and i wanna live through some years obviously, plus i dont know what i'll do when im older, i have no job skills

and when i meet new people i get awkward and scared and i end up never knowing what to say, but i want friends i do. i wish i could go out with my real friends but i cant because my mom doesnt allow it, i never go outside. and with my online friends i feel like im a bother to them

i feel like i have nothing sometimes tbh, i mean i dont have my own special person and i rely on people a lot, but usually i dont have somebody to talk to, i mean i have my homegirl dani but sadly she cant always be online and besides that everybody else is busy with their own lives

HEH

MEOWWWWWW

I LOVE THIS

why are you upset that i dont like you back romantically? why does everything have to be about dating , why cant it just be platonically?? whats so wrong with that. we just met, i cant like you immediately like that so just stop. why do you think i would anyway?? i barely know u, u barely know me.

this is overwhelming

BBAAANNNGGGAAARRRRR

im not the right person for you

BBAAANNNGGAARRR ADD MY NEW DISC ACCOUNT ITS CALLED IMERICHARRIS

hm.

YES I WANT TO TAKE THINGS SLOWER. LAST TIME ME AND SOME DUDE RUSHED IT IT ENDED LIKE A WWEEEK LATER. OR 2 WEEKS LATER AFTER LIKE A WHOLE MONTH. GULP. NOT LETTTING THAT HAPPEN AGAIN.

HES REALLY REALLY SWEET BUT ITS JUST. I DONT KNOW, HES KIND AND I LIKE IT BUT GULP. I DONT WANNA RUSHSTUFF LIKE I SAID. IM SCARED HE'LL LEAVE ME AFTER ALL OF THIS.

LITERALLY JUST YESTERDAYY GODDDD.

HES EVEN THE SAME AGE AS ME , SAME YEAR TOO

I MEAN I DONT WANNA RUSH THINGS THOUGH. LIKE ITS GETTING SO OVERWHELMING. SOME DUDE I JUST MET YESTERDAY AND HES CALLING ME ML AND JUST MAKING A PLAYLIST FOR US WITH THE NAME "bfs!" AND SHIT AND ITS JUST ITS SO OVERWHELMING BUT I LIKE IT BUT I DONT WANNA RUSH THINGS CUS IM SCARED.

I see i have made
you sad & fucked us up somehow.
i will try... always... i will always
love you please know this....
love
me

I love
you I LOVE
YOU

I know its
him... everything
is true...
my love is
genuine
Love...
existence for
ever is the
happiness
that we have
achieved
w. each other

Love is more valuable than anything I know.
To love is to enter a completion of one's self. I hate those who choose to destroy a love, who take it for granted.
love is greater than life even. As i look for love, i feel i can't find it.
ever.

late at night, I get so disgusted with myself and feel so motivated to lose all the disgusting fat .. . I must keep this til morning and pray I won't lose it til the guilt on my bones is all gone

it seems nearly everyday I wake up with no motivation to be a person. so I think eh what's the point in trying anymore

I'm a waste of time

I just wish I could call him.
something blocks me from calling him my human side is putting up a wall, to prevent me from calling him, like a few of "its" truth.
BS
I will overcome all fears, doubts, & zombie-based thoughts (oxymoron). I will follow our hearts, to the halcyon loving him. I love you