Miles! 🔜 TFF

You are so loved 🩷💛💜

I. Have had. Enough.

It feels like I’m making it up but it’s very real
I knew my pain couldn’t be made up but god damn :(

Got diagnosed with ‘broken heart syndrome’ today… kinda insane that it’s real. Sigh.

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My chest hurts terribly
The pain has become physical
This is impossible

Nightmares all night
Woke up crying
Woke up screaming
And I didn’t have my baby above my head to comfort me
I didn’t get to say “bye Callen, I love you, be good!” before I left
And now I have to go to work?

I don’t know how I’m gonna do this without my two best friends to lean on

This should not be all I have to remember the two of you
It aches
I miss you both as badly as I loved you both

Showering was awful
Having to sit at my computer and prepare for my job is awful
Everything is awful

I have no joy left. It all has been taken from me in less than a month

Made myself beyond upset by forgetting after finally getting some sleep
Looking around for you for literally 10 minutes
Then realizing

Fucking awesome. Great. Cool. As if it wasn’t hard enough.

24 hours since the last picture I took of you. I need you back. Please. I need you.

I hate that I keep looking for you
I keep thinking you’re just in one of your sleepy spots
My baby

This is touching my heart. I don’t even know what to say besides thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. 💙💙💙

Together Again 🤍
@chevybarks.bsky.social @werewolfwags.bsky.social

My baby. The last photo I have of my sweet little baby. Yesterday at 8:56pm. I’m so glad I took a picture of you, sugar.

Horribly poetic. And I fucking hate it.

My sweet boy. My sugar man. My Mr. Mallen. My everything.

I’ve been nonstop freaking out for over 12 hours now
And I’ll never have relief
I slept for not even 20 minutes before I shot up
How can I sleep without my baby above my head? Licking my hair? How can I rest without those purrs rattling my whole pillow?

Any person who met Callen will tell you he was not a cat
He was something else entirely

A child, an alien, an angel I don’t know
The coolest thing I’ve ever known

Anyone, could tell you just by meeting him how special he was, ask them.
How can life be so cruel to my kid, my sweet baby

their face and make them hit the floor. Purr while you do it, as loud as you can. Rumble the sky baby, give me a thunderstorm. Show Charlie how fast you can run for a toy. Show them you can bring it back and drop it at their feet. Curl up together, hold each other tight for me. Please. Be together.

My best friend and my best friend

Within a month

Oh Charlie, please give my baby the love I gave him here. Please give him big kisses. Give him greenies and purr pops. And Callen, give Charlie that grooming you gave me. Kiss their curly hair and munch munch their scalp. Push their glasses out of-

Please support my friends if you can. They lost their best friend and their cat within the same month.

I will be streaming later today to raise money for them.

What cruelty life deals me
For my baby to be taken away from me with no warning, no prevention, nothing I could’ve done
And for Charlie to be the same way.
Life is cruel and brutal and I have no more sunshine.

Because it fucking won’t
Ever
Be okay

My best fucking friend and now my baby? Are you fucking kidding me?

Someone just admit this is Hell already so I can give up hope that anything will ever be okay

My baby is gone

I have no strength
I have no light
I have no love
I have nothing

I can’t fuckign go on anymore

Fuck this fuck this fuck this fuck this

I fucking hate 2026 and I fucking will never fuckign ever fucking recover for even a second in my entire life

I can’t fucknig breathe
I can’t do this
Please god please god please

I am so done
I am so done
Life is nothing but cruel I am DONE