Pendles But Worse

Oh my gosh.... feathers! [1/2]

now if I could just DRAW IT AUHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

*FUCK*

reeeeaaaally really been in the bondage mindset recently
specifically falconry hoods but y'know
restrained Warmth goes hard too atm

I am so IN LOVE with Billy from deadlock

I couldn't not draw him with a phat slong~ enjoy~

#deadlock #nsfw #furryart

typed about borderlands lore for 2 hours straight
was better than most erps ive had

AND ANOTHER THING SPOILED FOR BL4 MAN

FUCK

I just stopped working an awful job for the sake of myself and being a workaholic
I'm now having nothing to do except work, and work HARD to not be miserable forever, and that included arbitrary availability and uncertainty in my future on top of it all?
yeah, feeling like I've failed. sorry.

but the notion of him right now just
fills me with uncomfy.
iunno, guess I'm just overwhelmed by change and stress. my emotional state has been very very turbulent, but the end result is I sit in a quiet room, isolated all the same.
just imagine if I wasn't lazy.

lets not even consider anything lewd gets an extreme reaction out of me right now and that's literally awful because I've been hyperfixated on Warmth. Happiest I've felt in a long time, finally having something that scratches that monster itch. literally perfect development and shift for my sona.

a large majority of this is frustration pointed inward, because I damn well know what steps I can take to start mitigating all these issues
but. i. just. cant. fucking. move.
all this change all this turbulence, and for what?
to just sit on my ass in a different spot.
I'm out of motivation i guess.

starting over, almost completely, from scratch, has been extremely scary and stressful, and i just cut off my one lifeline.
i doubt myself a lot, but I haven't felt this awful in a long time. financial, personal, and social, I'm the worst off I've been in years. it drives me insane too.

First sketch of the year 🐴

its my account i get to shout into the void how i please
im still thinking about falconry hoods a lot, which led to "oh shit i think im actually just into being blindfolded or something" and how it'd be an exercise in trust for me
but ouhhg my goodness thinking about that makes me melt like no other

collaboration with @shizumoh

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@shizumoh.bsky.social

hey yeah uh
me and who please please pleaseplease

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Smug Smoke

Should I let him in

laying in bed realizing a reaction i had to an interaction earlier was a trauma response and I'm putting two and two together now, havent eaten or slept well since
I'm so fucking glad i moved. would i even notice these things otherwise?
scary thoughts

you ever typefuck so hard your PC motherboard shorts out from how hot the monster smut was

yeah me too

thank you past pendles for meticulously going through and making a profile for warmth so i can crawl into my chair and pretend to be a creature

finally reached the 'unapologetically self indulgent creation since my niche does not exist on the internet YET' and been loving it
also which one of you bookmarked warmth, I see you 👀

body betraying me this morning by deciding that I am apparently into sweat a lot more than I anticipated

Kinktober day 7: Oral hyperfixation

#nsfw #kinktober

need to bite someone.

maybe I just get some like
kinky as fuck art
been thinking about falconry hoods a lot too, sounds scary but incredibly pleasant to entirely trust someone enough to be guided by them

anyways expect IRL stuff here, which does include horny content so fair warning
hell I'm unsure if that's even something I'll post on the regular
but goddamnit this is THE time for me to try new things and get out of my shell more.

starting off with holy FUCK dude i have been in a weird brain space
I want to do horny things but not explicitly sexual y'know
more than any of this though just need some cuddling and watching cool shows or silly videos