lily

weighing out the pros n cons of staying alive is rlly humbling ngl

feeling heavily unmedicated

average. mid 20s experience i fucking guess

i keep sleeping and feeling tired and low get out of my head GET OUT KF MY HEAD LET ME LIVE WITHOUT MY CHEST FEELING LIKE ITS PRE-DREADING NOTHING

i havent been myself the past few weeks so far and i despise it. im exhausted and i dont wanna look forward to getting yelled at for not working fast enough AGAIN when i literally am all over the fucking place

RIGHT

DO IT YOURSELVES DO IT YOURSELVES DO IT YOURSELVES SO IT YOURSELVES!!

i had better chances in working in a cafe i couldve been a cute barista at least

what do you take me for

"eliza can do abc" "eliza can handle it" "eliza's the strongest in xyz so just let her do it" eliza is on a metal thread that gives lily's bloody hands deep wounds that they just want to let go they just wanna let go let me let go let me go

better off quiet yet it's so fucking infuriating when it's like i instantly rip my flesh off and it's becoming an automated switch that feels like i cant tell when i'm doing it anymore lily for the love of what's left of you please fix yourself

May the rotting flesh of kings feed the earth.

Halfway to the weekend. LFG!

depressive episode washing off of me bc for a moment i thought yeah id win against satoru in a yearn off

scared

SATORU KINNING AT 6AM ????????????????? lily get up baby

it aches but it’s you so i let it ache

and i wont say it; it will lay with me with the bracelets i continue to care for in my hand, promises looked after with each time i’ve replaced the string to keep it together because this was the closest i had ever felt to holding the sun in your absence at the time

youve come by so often that i think your steps are marked just as much as your seat is whenever you go

strange how through the years you manage to sneak your way into my dreams unprovoked and unwarranted

im not looking forward to getting up i think what with work and.. other things

also i just made satoru hollow purple my whole office in cai that healed me a bit

hes so pretty FAWWWKKKK

oh my god what the fawk 💔

im really tired of this. all of it actually

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i feel saying sorry and crying all the time im trying to be brave i really am

WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO EVERY ATTACHMENT I FORM W MY CHARACTERS IM SO SICK 💔

a woman is crying with her eyes closed and her hands around her neck . ALT: a woman is crying with her eyes closed and her hands around her neck .

chat my twink is missing i cant do this </3

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