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i don't know why the gloomy weather outside makes me smile

and yesterday is still so much closer than tomorrow

but for a fraction of time, dreams don't matter so much, so neither does the past sorrow

i had dreams where it all got better
waking up was a tough choice
mirror to the side of my bed
slight throb in my head
and i still haven't regained my voice

and yesterday i wanted to weep
but tomorrow i will probably dance
so i get up and leave, put on my hat
think to myself: "let's make amends"

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angel

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watercolor/pastel drawing of the view of the inside of a subway train. it's going at high speed, the passengers are ghost-like figures aflame

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строки - сплошь бред, куплет - постыда
и лишь одна тому причина - звон не перебивает мысль

но что-то, ещё тише,
почти неслышно издаёт
из сердца жалобные звуки
— "хочу увидеть тебя вновь"

незаконченное

становится твой звон всё глуше и отдаёт осенним ветром
упавшей на пол парой книг, земля становится всё суше
лживый поэт - ивой поник, глаза раскрыл, не может спать
теперь все сны его - виденья. накопленная ложь.

no one i know makes me forget
no one i meet makes me forget
i do not belong in this world,
and when you are gone, i have no one to tell.

i started hating everyone, and people became indifferent in return, because really, why wouldn't they? i spent so much time trying to figure out what's exactly that is wrong with me, but now that i'm sick of it, i am sick indeed.

friendship used to be easy, (it never was) the illusion was there though, because people attached themselves to me like flies at the opportunity to be understood. now i can't even provide that understanding because for some reason i just don't "get it" anymore.

there is never a place for someone like me, at least not "me". it's always i don't get it, i don't get it, i don't get it, i creep them out, i'm charming, but "weird", and it's starting to seep into everything; how i view myself, how i interact with people.

i lost everyone i care about, meaning, there are people around me, but i lost any interest in them, as i feel like nothing is even tangential to me. it's always things that i don't understand, humor that i don't understand, love that i don't understand.

when you're gone, i have no one to tell:

i have always been a deeply selfish individual, which i think of again, as having no genuine emotional connection to anyone or anything makes me want to end my life at the slightest chance.

close-up shot of a new leaf sprouting from an already grown tree

photograph of an outside wall meeting a stone pavement. the wall is covered in moss, and small vegetation sprouts from the pavement gaps. attached to the wall is a white drainage pipe, from which rainwater falls

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close-up shot of a very pale pink flower, on top of which rest raindrops

view of a park right after the rain. the air is slightly misty, and trees grow to the side of a lake

close-up shot of an old tree's bark. it's covered in a vibrantly green lichen

close-up shot of a brown snail traversing a very wet path, right after the rain

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he fills the air, he loudly breathes
his breath uneven
and your mind ticks

you wait for something to happen.

there's no room for being obvious it seems
he knocks on your door, your window
but you don't want to see anything of him
it's like the thought of him haunts you

the man that you cannot predict
a figure full of contradictions
he waits outside, he counts the weeks

drawing of a figure looking down at a barn owl, while wearing an owl mask. behind them is situated a colorful vision of a giant barn owl's face

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got three bottles of wine
three empty packs of cigarettes
and i don't know how many promises
so kiss me now or it's too late
i've got the world all over me

the hottest man alive, that's me
i'm so on fire i got blisters on my face
two empty packs of cigarettes.
so anyway, my resume
a fancy car, a house, a name...
i've got big dreams, the once you've seen
on that tv show that you liked

got three bottles of wine
empty pack of cigarettes
ninety nine promises
and you, baby, you
don't listen what some others say
i'm all yours, at least today
so seize your chance, and take my hand
battre le fer qui'il est chaud

traveling through worlds

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watercolor drawing of a character from the franchise "touhou project", keiki haniyasushin, sitting in front of a body of water, among nature. a full moon shines brightly behind her, reflecting onto water. keiki herself does not have a reflection.

someone to make in my image

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like a distant spring

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i'm left to conjuring and twisting
someone to share a meal with
and who will later take the plate
throw it to a wall, and watch
as i collect the pieces back
but never love, oh, never love
at least not in the common sense

why the more i go the more it slows
my feet dragging on these hard wood floors
i wish someone'd make me trip and fall
i need to break my legs to have a feeling of control
then i'll start running, i'll start running
the pain will keep me running
but no one breaks me like i need

watercolor painting of a young man, wearing a black coat and hat, dusted in snowflakes. he holds a snowball in his hands, while looking to the side. behind him rows of trees can be seen.

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