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me laying in my freshly cleaned floor sad as fuck

but if i just keep reading my silly little books i can’t think myself into an abyss about how i’m way too much for most people and that i don’t have any amount of talent put into one thing so no one will ever tell me how good i am at something at first glance

should not hurt my feelings as much as it did

lmfao

it also hits me very often that i’m not good at tangible things and i’m also not knowledgeable about anything useful, and that is devastating to be reminded of over and over again

all of the people i’ve met through the shop and actively communicate with are so good and it makes me wonder if i’m really just that bad

i’m not gonna lie i think the anger worked for me a little

i cleaned my room and moisturized and put on my wrinkle cream and am laying in bed so so calm and collected

it makes me genuinely sad that i have been consistently showed time and time again that i am in some way not good enough for the partners ive found in life.

i love my friends and they are my absolute world and i will always be happy without a romantic partner, but i long for it nonetheless.

thank you, random human on reddit. this was a bit what i needed to see

i have ✨the feeling✨

me going to bed super late so i have to deal with the bad dreams for a shorter amount of time tonight 🥰

maybe once i’m back on my medicine i wont be so obnoxious and ill actually be able to shut the fuck up for once

i made these drunk at midnight after the guy i like drove me home and there was a completely different energy than any other time we’ve hung out (and we haven’t hung out in like. a month or so?)

maybe i need to listen to drunk me w my feelings hurt a little more

it’s changed how i prioritize my time a lot. the people i love, i talk to every single day or at the very least have in depth catchups with regularly. if i don’t have that from the person i’m talking to then it is not going to work out at all

idk if this is a super chronically online take but i saw a tiktok a while back that basically said if someone you’re dating/with can go the entire day without bothering to check in or reach out, then they don’t care enough to. they don’t like you enough to want to know how you are or how your day is

this has definitely been a year and i’m glad it’s almost over

gimme 69

you better be lying rn i s2g

23!!!!

the second i realize someone is no longer listening to what im saying, im going to stop talking and i will not start again. you will only embarrass me once and i will not do it again

there is nothing more devastating in my life than being so full of love that i continuously give it to the wrong being with reckless abandon

i’m slowly but surely entering my withdrawal phase and it’s always so detrimental to my mental health but i’m just gonna go with it

i’m not being dramatic when i say if this guy asks me to send him n◡̈des i’ll actually enter a villain era unlike anything before

sometimes being single is better because if i took a break during sex to scroll on social media for 5 minutes with someone else it would not be as chill as it is if im by myself LMAO

someone needs to put your ass on a leash i’m so serious

i only hold one grudge, and that’s because what caused it irreparably damaged how i operate on a day to day basis. it was because of a MAN on top of that.

i just can’t forgive something like that.

i’ll only let myself get played for so long and then i’m out

i gotta stop telling people that i’m sad when they obviously don’t give a shit

doordashed my lunch. they forgot my drink and chips. the driver offered to go back but i didn’t want to make him do that and he was so nice. he did it anyway.

what a nice human. i could cry over this