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Girls shouldn't have to work if they're so so sleepy

ive been wanting to ask im just always so nervous to talk to people :,)

just got a fuckton of free dvds from work bcs the redbox outside shut down. i love being alive

yoo!! can i add u on there :3

hm. my sleep schedule is getting kinda fucked. i should fix that (im not going to)

Volvo 240 DL wagon 1986. - source Bring a Trailer.
#classiccars #vintagecars #carshow #classiccarculture #volvo

xana really creates content i’ve never seen from other artists (eating dish soap)

death gripping the steering wheel. today has to be a good day. it has. to be.

i do think angel theory of a deadman is like one of the most 12clara songs ive ever heard. sorry

oh i feel you. it took me years to stop trying to compare my experiences with others and invalidating myself over it. the disorder is *very* uniquely coded to the individual and their experiences in a way that doesn’t really happen in other disorders (imo)

text reading “okay so lot to unpack here but i feel like i have a lot of experience with this as someone who went from poly frag to having ~8 alters. in my experience (and from that of other fully/almost fully fused systems) the parts that fuse never really… leave. i describe it as my fused parts being a sort of “mindset” or “self state” i can choose to take on now. sometimes certain triggers will make me feel more like x fused alter or y fused alter but i still retain a sense of it being “me” rather than it being a switch. you definitely can fuse down to only one part and ive met people who have! it just wont ever be the same experience a singlet has and it isnt as segmented as what a non fused system experiences. it’s its own unique experience, in my opinion”

wanted my thoughts in one reply… taps my fingers together. forgot to add that as ive fused down, we’ve become more similar and started to have a more “coherent” collective identity as well. so it. is possible just not in the black and white way people think full fusion is

save me lumbar support. save me.

shift so bad i have to sit in the volvo for a solid 20 min to compose myself before leaving the parking lot

i am a bit!! its mostly just the usual pain now 😭

big fan of finding out who i really am underneath it all

tee shirt yhat says “i love fusion”

late but im okay! i just have really bad joint pain that flares up sometimes :,) and work does Not help

lowkeyyy i already set up an account to do that (ive just been too nervous/busy to actually do anything with it 😭)

weh!! ty!! im honestly considering tagging my posts with who’s fronting… maybe…

i appreciate that sm :,) im really private about my sp but i appreciate the gesture soso much

i miss when people would call us by our own names. sad little existence im living right now. i miss feeling seen.

i wish i still felt comfortable being open about my did. i don’t even talk about it with my friends anymore. it’s lonely, i guess

at least i had the foresight last night to fill up my gas tank. thank you to my one not stupid alter

ngl i always feel bad leaving her out in the snow like what if she gets too cold :(

semi low quality image of a silver volvo s40 in the snow. its windshield wipers are popped up. the low beams look vaguely like eyes

why is she looking at me like that

i don’t think a single person has ever met me n thought “wow. she seems really normal and well adjusted”

but we don’t have time to unpack all that. gonna go make shrimp

also memorized how to pull the parts i need on an s40. except for the trim. thats just gonna be hands on learning i guess

in completely unrelated news i have a new torque wrench coming and im looking at torx sets because the ones my dad had are missing bits :/

it really is all the what ifs and what couldve beens that hurt the most. like all the moments he should’ve been there and he just wasnt. sucks