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Life is hard without Torie. I don’t feel like myself. We were together since I was 16, everything I knew about myself was discovered with my girl by my side. Every hard day, met with Torie kisses and cuddles. I don’t know myself with Torie and I feel so lost, but I’ll make it out alive, I promise.

Honestly I feel kind of lame for always posting about how I miss Torie but I also think we hide our grief too much as a society. We should all feel comfortable sharing our love, showing the world that it’s okay to be sad and it’s okay to miss someone once they’re gone.

I might go live????

Being chronically ill is the worst. Mostly because I feel like work places don’t take it seriously. I constantly feel like my work thinks I’m just making excuses to not be in office when I’m fighting to stay healthy and trying to accommodate myself.

I’m so glad our kitty got to meet Torie before things got bad for her. I see him doing Torie things all the time, he loves just chilling on the couch in the living room in the same spot Torie always did and it makes my heart swell 😭💖

I don’t know how to describe it but your eyes just look so much more you 🥹💖 like your whole soul is radiating outward now and it makes my sappy lil heart so happy

ALSO I have a second interview with Planned Parenthood in an EA role coming up 😭 yall I would cry so hard if I got to be a part of a company that actually helps people 🥹

Do I want to get my real estate license or am I just manic?? The world may never know …

Excuse me, these are actually really cute 💖

Hell yes, I would like to go home and play Sims. Thank you.

just about time for my favorite thanksgiving tradition: accidentally starting a new skyrim save

Publically on again/off again relationships at 30+ is very confusing to me.

Obvi everyone is welcome to their relationships but to me making the issues public on Facebook feels like a cry for help. Like should I call the police mama? Blink twice.

Pervis: IT'S SO HARD TO MAKE FRIENDS AS AN ADULT! Stranger: I'LL BE YOUR FRIEND! Pervis: EW! Pervis, alone, eating a burger: THAT WEIRDO RUINED MY DAY!

The struggles of a cat 😿

Do not bring up Midnight in Paris around me if you are not ready for a two hour info dump 💅

CRYING 😭 Zack and Torie, the bestest buds. I hope they’re reunited in the Void and having the best time 🌈✨

(Also pls don’t yell at me for having a dog around Hookah… I was an idiot college student, I know better now)

In our hearts, Stu and I are still here - just two little guys.

SPOILER: they didn’t pick me 😭 and I got two job offers for giant step backs so back to the application board I go.

Hug your loved ones a little extra tight me for this week. You never know what the future holds, you never when you’ll have the last goodbye.

It’s been 10 years since I last saw my best friend. I didn’t know it then, but I’d never have another friend like Zack. I wish I could go back and hug him, tell him that our friendship was the best thing that ever happened to me. That I miss him every moment we’re not together. That I love him. #rip

She is everything I want to beeee 💖😭

Comic illustration with thick outlines and desaturated colors: a horned ghost stands at the edge of the field and watches the flocks of birds passing by

"How do you know when to go?" - “How do you know when to stay?”

This is how you become a writer: just pick one of the things that is deeply wrong with you. Make it a character. Now send it on a self-help journey or try to kill it. Now call it a book.

I’ve feel like I’ve finally found the town I want to live in for ~forever (or at least more than a couple years) and I can’t stop thinking about it.

I have two interviews this week 😭 hoping that my dream jobs calls me back though.

Applied to a boatload of jobs today, fingers crossed one of them will get me to a better state 😭💖💙

Multnomah falls in Oregon

Oh, a new place to share photos. Let’s give this a try
#photography

A small and steep waterfall cascading over moss-covered rocks. The waterfall is located within a lush green forest, although many of the trees are missing leaves.

If I’m being honest, this picture is almost as peaceful as leaving behind that God awful bird app