Cyra | Super Smash Cache

I am once again horny enough to think someone is telepathically sending spicy thoughts to me

A haunted house, but it's shopping for health insurance in the USA when:

Income and subsidies are hard to predict as a business owner dealing with tariffs

Continuing with your family doctor adds $150/month to the premium

Getting married and having a "normal people" job ALMOST sounds appealing

I did worry that taking a break would make me lazy.

But nah.

I MUST create. I MUST read. I MUST write. I MUST move. I MUST horn.

The self-care drives are all there, and they're not just telling me to stay in bed all day.

(And if they are, I respect that I probably actually need it.)

Morning: HORNY, HUNGRY, AND NEED TO EMPTY BRAIN CHATTER

Afternoon: HORNY, HUNGRY, AND NEED TO READ OR MOVE

NIGHT: HORNY, HUNGRY, AND NEED TO SLEEP

Always. Inevitably.

My body's "dashboard" is full of orange lights for HUNGRY, HORNY, TIRED, and HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY.

And I address whichever one is probably going to turn red first

I could say the same for other afflictions

UTIs, BV, STIs? Super common! Normal people get them

But the conditions themselves don't have to be accepted as normal

You don't say, "Eh, everyone has those symptoms" or "Eh, that's not going to affect me"

You seek out help

Hot take: IT'S OKAY TO SAY PMS AND PMDD AREN'T NORMAL

Debilitating pain and mental illness don't have to be "just the way it is"

PMS and PMDD are COMMON. They don't make THE PERSON abnormal

BUT SEVERE SYMPTOMS DON'T HAVE TO BE THE NORM

People deserve to know more options for relief & management

Unpopular opinion: a 13-step skincare routine isn't necessarily excessive

Someone might apply different specialty products to different body parts

Eczema cream? That's one product. General cleanser for acne-prone skin? Might be one for face and one for body, then spot treatment. You get the idea.

My mom: "Woah, how did you get your face so smooth and shiny?"

Me: "Idk, I forgot to wash it today lol."

(Though I did explain that, the day before that, I had multiple skin care steps involving acids, which dissolved both sebum and the top layer of skin to make me look glassy.)

Jk, I got a new tattoo within that time

And I have to remind myself that reading is not doing nothing, even though it's this middle ground between "I know it's good for the brain" and "it's not directly productive"

2 and a half hours as a kid: omg that's foreverrrrr

2 and a half hours as an adult: how does time fly by when I just eat, read, and dawdle? I was so busy doing nothing

My dad: "'Cacoon' is the word for what a butterfly comes from, right?"

Me: "Yes"

My dad: "I'm going to the 'cacoon' place soon" ... he thinks about it for a bit longer and realizes the word he was looking for ... "I'm going to Cancun"

When people say, "You don't LOOK like ____" what I hear is, "I haven't seen varied examples of ____"

"You don't LOOK like a 31-year-old"

"You don't LOOK like a business owner"

"You don't LOOK like a gun owner"

Well, I am

You have limited views of what people who look like me are supposed to be

Mamdani was so real for quoting Toni Morrison — that discrimination is a distraction AND we SHOULD be shocked when we see that BS

We SHOULD be bothered instead of saying "That's just a fact of life"

Don't let every comment and and slight take away from your mission — but also don't be numb to it

As much as I love the idea of "winning" internet arguments, I have to remind myself that I'm not paid enough to moderate social media comments.

I expressed my views in good faith, and if someone wants to twist them into something else, I have my limits of engagement lol.

Okay, okay. I think I've figured out a way to salvage the second photo — blurred focus and all — and collage it for an art show

If you can accept that bi women aren't "just spicy straight" and bi men aren't "just gay," you can accept that switches are more than "just spicy subs." Come on, now

BDSM is more than "Dominant masculine sadistic top" and "submissive feminine masochistic bottom"

For example, a guy who likes having his back clawed and skin broken during intercourse is traditionally masculine but also a masochist for one action and a top for another

And it's not a niche example

And yes, a Pillow Princess can be Dominant.

Topping and bottoming are about who is doing the action.

Dominance and submission are about who is calling the shots.

A Dominant bottom (Pillow Princess) commands their submissive (Service Top) to please them just right.

FOH with your reductive boxes

I don't think I was actively subby until my mid-to-late 20s when I internalized the weight of being "bad"

Like, "I'm 'supposed to' be married by now. What if guys find me gross and unwifeable for my high libido?"

I REALLY need that reassurance that it is hot and I'm a good girl when stupid horny

I bit My tongue bc I knew My answer wasn't that useful to them

In truth, even at 18, I gave jackoff instructions & cum-eating instructions

I've been a pillow princess (Dom-leaning switchy bottom) for a long time

Serve Me right or GTFO — that mentality attracted and kept people-pleaser sub guys

Munch attendee: "If you're switchy or Dominant, how did you build the confidence?"

Me in my head: "I started getting paid to pro-Dom"

Another attendee: "How did you find subs when you had little experience?"

Me internally: "I assumed partners wanted to make Me happy and instructed accordingly"

Testing Motorbunny attachments today

Low-key flattered to have been asked, "Have you ever been married?"

Like, oh, thank you! You think I sound seasoned enough to have been through all of that and divorced already!

Wickedwhims gets pretty elaborate

It was so hard to do these with a self-timer and no remote control shutter omg

I'm so hype for this "new" vintage bed at the local rope dungeon 🏰❣️

Someone who benefits from your time and energy will frame you as unreasonable for revoking their access to you.

But here's the thing: it's your choice how you spend your time and energy and to seek out quality treatment and care. That's not their call to make.

And let me tell you: it pisses CERTAIN PEOPLE off to see and hear an Asian woman not neatly fitting into the box they've designated as "her place," even if subconsciously

Coming around to understanding that therapy and personal development might make people like me LESS over time.

But I become more okay with being disliked — especially by people who benefit from me having softer boundaries or believing I have less personal power.