🌑 ʟʏᴘsᴏ chic era 🫧

I tried recovery and I just ate and ate and couldn't stop and started drinking again and I got scared so im back. Idk im just gonna lean into ortho. If my brain cant be healthy at least maybe my body can. My fiance took me to blackpool tho it was lovely

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I hate myself to the point that I dont care what I look like at all. Idk if I could tell anyone young with an ed anything I'd say get out. Go do a random diet or to the gym. I really dont know, but I've really lost it and I know you dont want to be me. This is bad.

Oh man. There's something wrong with me. Can't stop thinking about fresh mozz, sliced tomato, and basil

I see. Okay let me bully him, dm me his business and ill leave a terrible but realistic bad review of his business on Google maps and then ill comment randomly on some old social media post he'll never know it was you. Offer stands lol

Oh Joz im so sorry

me and him 🖤

Bully him online anonymously it's so healing I promise

I found enough change in the couch to get a 2 liter of cider but not caprese salad that's so unfair. Got the cider tho

Im fucking scared idk what to do i want caprese salad its so dumb but im scared of the possibility of not having caprese salad

Like i might be weird about food

I cant stop thinking about caprese salad. Like honestly lately I dont think I have an ed but I cant get it out of my mind and that doesn't seem normal

I had to do the math, 250 bucks would be 24.4 caprese salads you're so right

Growing up is not calling Edward gay bc that's not an insult. Maturing is realizing he is actually gay as fuck

Oh man good point I've done it for much less I'm sorry 😅 i mean my blowie for cash days are over i think but you are right

I want caprese salad so bad I thought about going out and blowing someone for 10 bucks so I can get one that's messed up, I've blown people for a lot of shit but never a goddamncapresesalad

My fiance is gone for a couple days and I told him there's enough food but there's really none and I have no money i really backed myself into a fast huh

Purple suits you so well!!

Everything i do, I do fatly

Yeah i did, and I'm doing better now. Just kinda focusing on what I can do and not on what is bad. Its not easy but its helping.

I don't blame you, I could really go for a doordash tikka masala rn 😂

I feel like i need to relapse on my ed to get off the booze that's so fucked

The tomatoes had TASTE i was shocked

Self hatred era lol

I blended some sautéed garlic and lemon in with the basil for the fresh pesto and I just need that again oh my god

I haven't been taking pics of my food bc recovery but I did take one of this caprese I made a couple weeks ago bc look at her I miss her

On top of everything im sure I gained 10 pounds I've been ignoring the scale and eating real meals I must be fucked

I feel so guilty im so sorry I want to apologize but for what and to who idk

I really appreciate this 🩵🫶😭youre right im gonna get back into crafts or something i need to

True, I knew for a while it would be bad but its just hitting me now. What can you do but be there for everyone?