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I'll definitely have a lot of disabled rep i think that's super important especially given how disabling eds can be 😭 multiple characters will have binge/res cycles for sure! Some longer cycles than others I want it to be super realistic <3

I really want to I'm sizing up my mental health rn but I think i will yeah! Want a dm if I do?

IM GETTING MARRIED IN MAY 🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈 (probably, if visa and some personal stuff works out)

Oh no 😭🫶 dw Joz I will share my royalties with you if I get a terrible Netflix adaptation

Thinking about writing a novel about a group of disordered folks am I missing any key demographics #edsky

Not that i was purging. Idk i need some baby steps towards being healthier. Idk why i didnt learn to just eat like a person.

Made up my mind. Just doing damage control because I am completely overwhelmed trying to recover this decades long ED entirely on my own. No fasts over 50 hours. No purging. Not that I was purging. Ill try to stop counting on the weekends. Idk

Im alone in the trailer for the night and it's kind of tripping me out. I haven't been somewhere without roomates/family/my fiance/friends like all alone ALL night in a while like im being so calm though

Im already so high

Switching sativa for indica bc it's night time 🌚 this drink mix is pretty good idk I'm not the biggest limeade fan. Would prefer cucumber watermelon but they didn't have that the end.

Im not counting but i did take pictures. I feel really full and I want to fast but I know i need to recover. I have no idea how I did today. I want to count so bad I bit all my nails I havent done that in forever RIP

(From yesterday) Those mysterious black masses are hot wings lol

Not counting but I don't think this is a normal amount also more calories from candy than other food im guessing and that is diabolical I feel pretty shit about it tbh

Today so far. A big dinner would be nice i might buy a rotisserie chicken

Not counting but there's yesterday. I feel like i need to take pics or i forget if ive eaten or not and I usually assume I did eat if theres no pic.

I think it is? Idk I've been battling my logging compulsion since it's the most time consuming and doing pretty good at that but I guess ONLY that Oops. I mean I'll keep trying though what else can you do

I feel like I'm nailing this recovery thing except for the eating part 😮‍💨

I can't feel my arms lol but i made 50 bucks

a skeleton is sitting in a chair in a dark room with a red background . ALT: a skeleton is sitting in a chair in a dark room with a red background .

Realizing how much time I have to fill without my ed behaviors

Okay i lied I took a picture of the larabar I might just keep taking pictures for now 💀 I haven't counted the cals and I will try not to but honestly my stomach feels great considering how long that fast was (usually im dashing for the bathroom like I took lax after a fast)

I did it tho and im gonna eat a larabar and not take a picture bc I feel wild rn 🤪

🌄 Recovery Mindset Thread 🌄

Big Goals: track less, eat more, go from there. Just chill out in general. Improvement not perfection.

Ikr and I always crave it when im binging and dont tend to need it as much 🥲

Omg that sounds amazinggg I should definitely have planned ahead. I do have oranges and larabars which have fiber though and seem to not upset my stomach. Also oatmeal but sometimes oatmeal is really not the thing you want 💀

Why is Gatorade and a larabar this scary 💀 like im gonna do it but sheesh. The only reason im so committed is bc it'll make my fast 67 hours and like ik ik but for some reason it is helping me end it and I'll take any help atp

Thank you 😭💜

Also I'm sorry for late or missed responses I really do appreciate any interaction 😭 i know im always gOiNg tHrOuGh iT but this past week really threw hands and shit is untenable rn 😅

Okay TLDR so I don't spam: I got a lot worse but now I want to recover and I've been fasting 60+ hours and I really need to eat soon and I made a goal to do it in 30 minutes but im so scared

Tomato dressing sounds so good id do it like a shot 😅

Happy birthday Joz! How was your salad lol

I sweat a lot and I agree, cotton all the way