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WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE LOCKING IN

FUN FACT: Did you know that after dropping my abuela off at the airport, kicking off a week of being home alone, I did not st4rve and instead ate the rest of my leftover birthday cake and Indi4n food and this was hours ago and I still feel full up to my throat

We eatin' GOOOOOOOD tonight

TEENY TINY ITTY BITTY this is a HUGE change!!

🫂 This shit isn't easy. Glad you're here, but hoping you find some peace soon. 🩵

They really are! I don't blame him, sticking to one cookie was tough 😭

D, the red fit, and the navy fit are my faves! Super cute and perfect for fall + the start of October!

The cookie was good, I really liked it! 100cals per cookie :')

The last gift my partner got me for my bday came in and she's beautiful!! 😭 Celebrating by baking one cookie, and hopefully it's good bc I think I bought this dough like..... maybe over a month ago..... maybe two months.....

I love this layout sm!! 🧡🖤

Tiny Tay omg!! You're looking smaller and smaller every time you post a pic!

Happy October! We're locking in again this month and we're all gonna feel great in our costumes and enjoy fall dishes, desserts, and candy with no guilt!! H4lloween is my fave holiday and we WILL have fun and enjoy it this year 🎃🦇🖤

Thank you :( I just felt so ungrateful, and it was such blatant and obvious visual representation of how this ed is degrading the relationships around me. They were hearts and I was too bothered by the fact that it was unwanted food that I didn't notice nor appreciate the effort and love.

I talked to them about my bingeing this month and how I'm losing control and that I've been gaining, not losing. They were kind and understanding. I love them but I feel like such an embarrassment and such a shitty girlfriend with all my stupid fucking issues. Always something with me.

Ate a big meal for breakfast bc today was going to be busy at work, and my partner brought me a snack plate they made for me and were visibly saddened by me kindly rejecting it. When they left the room I noticed they cut the strawberries into hearts. I cried so much. I fucking hate myself

Being an emotional eater with an ed is so fucked up bc why am I bingeing to cope with my emotions and numb myself and then wanting to eat more bc I'm stressed and scared about w8 gain and how much I ate

This happened back in high school when I reached my previous lw. I always hit a low and maintain for a bit and then get stressed for too long or tired or sad or I feel like I'm missing out and I just want comfort and pleasure and I eat eat eat anything I can see

Okay I can FOR SURE see that I've gotten bigger. I'm fucking up. Need to hit my next gw in October. I'm not getting bigger because of muscles or anything I'm just eating eating eating and I don't need to. I eat when I'm not hungry. I'm falling back into my emotional bingeing like fucking clockwork

I've at least maintained but I STG I LOOK bigger now. My face, my stomach, my arms. October 1st I need to lock in but I also need to get my br1desmaid dress tailored, and I wish I was fucking smaller for that but I just! Can't! Stop! Eating! I just finished dumplings and cake and I wanna eat MORE

I've gotten WAY too comfortable bc I noticed I was eating a lot more than usual and maintaining my weight, but if I keep this up I'm so fucked. Also won't be surprised if I'm back in the triple digits tomorrow. I've hit my goal for the month every month except this one 😭

This month has been suuuch a disaster bc of big events + my job stressing me out + my birthday, I've been binging like HELL I literally made myself dumplings and DRANK THE LEFTOVER SOY SAUCE oh my GOD

Also I ate so much this trip bc I allowed myself to but.................. we'll find out how much I'm going to regret it tomorrow lol.

This has been so difficult bc the clients I work w always want to make the design worse! We have a client that critiqued our choice of typeface recently saying it looks dated, but... it's part of the brand guidelines lol. It's hard ignoring your own design sense bc you don't want to submit bad work!

Tysm for all the birthday wishes! My partner and I celebrated by driving up and going to H4lloween H0rror N1ghts :') Loooved the FN4F and Terr1fier houses!

Also, it's my birthday! All cals on me 🥳

Why can I only see something I write if it's a post I make separately 😭 Any why ONLY on my feed and not my profile!!!

Anyway tysm for the replies to my last post about cr3ative burnout at work!! 🫶

Wtf is going on w either Bsky or my connection?? I've liked posts + replied to different people but every time I close and open the app, it's like I haven't interacted with anyone. Idk if this will even post 😭

Genuinely tysm for all your input! I've been feeling so insecure and stressed with work that I just need all the reassurance possible, so ty for not shutting up lol. Hearing that most ppl prefer to receive "flawed" work sooner vs. "perfect" work later is something I keep thinking about. [1/?]

I'm also incredibly harsh on myself and believe that everything I make is terrible and I'm constantly redoing things so I take so long to get projects done and I'm behind. Even when I'm told that they like xyz thing I did I can't ever trust myself. And even though we're swamped I still feel behind